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I am cancer free. So far in my life. Thank goodness.
I got the call from the doctor late last night, and spent the last 20 minutes of 30 Rock crying tears of joy. When I told Anthony he broke down too. And then we had a long crying talk about the past month and how shitty he's been. It didn't heal everything, but it started. I was so scared, but now I can let that go. I can also let go the hairbrained idea that Jess was somehow "cursing" me with cancer. If I got it I knew she was still upset with me, and, well.... if I didn't then I knew she had forgiven me. It doesn't make sense... but it does it a way, or at least in the way that I could deal with what was happening to me so soon after her passing.
Just letting it all go today.
My birthday party is tomorrow, while the real day is Sunday. I have something else big to celebrate now.
Love,
Buriedchild.
I got the call from the doctor late last night, and spent the last 20 minutes of 30 Rock crying tears of joy. When I told Anthony he broke down too. And then we had a long crying talk about the past month and how shitty he's been. It didn't heal everything, but it started. I was so scared, but now I can let that go. I can also let go the hairbrained idea that Jess was somehow "cursing" me with cancer. If I got it I knew she was still upset with me, and, well.... if I didn't then I knew she had forgiven me. It doesn't make sense... but it does it a way, or at least in the way that I could deal with what was happening to me so soon after her passing.
Just letting it all go today.
My birthday party is tomorrow, while the real day is Sunday. I have something else big to celebrate now.
Love,
Buriedchild.