i only cried through second period today...
thanx for all the comments on the last entry. don't worry about me, you guys. i'm going to be fine. i'm more worried about eric than i am about me. he really seemed to be hurt by the fact that i broke up with him. i didn't know i was going to hurt him so bad. i felt like such a total bitch. jim said he wouldn't even talk to him about it. damn. this really sucks. you never really realize how much of your life a person can take over until that person is gone. everywhere i turned today, there he was. obviously all over my room, my car, my locker, my purse, wal*mart, in every story i told and everything i remembered today, he was there. i miss him already. why are matters of the heart so damned confusing and hurtful? what seems to be the right thing hurts worse than what's the wrong thing. i don't think i've ever had to keep myself crying for an entire day. this time i did. goddammit. now i'm crying. i kept it pretty much under control all day and now i'm just bawling my fucking eyes out like a fucking baby. i don't even know why i'm crying. i was the one that decided to end it. i really wish i wasn't as stupid as i am.