i am sober :-(

[bupbeephee]

but i won't be in a few minutes. i know i wasn't going to post unless i was drunk or high, but, that is not the case because i get my MCAT score tonight and i'm extremely nervous and just want to ramble but Jesse told me not to ramble even though he said it's one of my most endearing qualities. well, not rambling, but how i "get so excited about life". either way, i should stop rambling out loud, which is why i'm doing it here. I'm writing this to waste time because i promised myself i'd only check for my score once every fifteen minutes. it is 11:04. i checked at 11. i have 11 minutes left. i could try getting dressed, as i showered over my last fifteen minute interval. however, i figured i could hold out ten more minutes in a towel and then get dressed in the next interval if there is a next interval. Monica was in a towel fresh out of the shower when she found out, and it was good news. Maybe it will be good luck for me to stay in a towel. Maybe not. Kai keeps telling me that there is no luck that will change my score now as it is already determined. Clearly, he was not paying attention during the movie match point. luck plays a much greater role than we care to admitt, because it means we have to relent some control over our own lives. so if i want to be superstitious, i will be, and no one can stop me. to be totally honest, i feel like anxiously awaiting it like this might be bad luck, i generally feel that when i care less about tests i do better. that's not always true, though...i freaked out like this before getting my SAT score and it turned out to be good, and i wasn't worried and was sure i aced my second semester orgo final and did poorly. who knows? ahhhhhhhhhh TELL ME ALREADY AAMC!!!
i guess i should get the liquor ready