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right now im talking to casie. shes nice. cool.
i finally finished island. it was beautiful. huxley talked about every issue, i think he really did think up utopia. cool.
i decided no human can live life without meditation. natural meditation AND meditation induced through smoking/eating marijuana or eating shrooms. even when you think you have yourself figured out you can still surprise yourself. mr huxley said it best too, talking about liberation of yourself, he described a mushroom trip in the last chapter and what farnaby realized..."knowledgeless understanding", hmmmm sounds alot like something familiar.
speaking of which, i havnt felt the tao in a long time. last fall i felt it everywhere, it was really nice. i was completely at peace with myself and my surroundings. i dont know, i havnt felt it since winter closed in on everything. ive been worried about the future and graduation and such.
me and ryans band with frester and matt is progressing. i really hope that whole thing works out. we all go together so well. its like we were all waiting for this band to happen to us or something. but its kinda got that creepy thing too, like, especially me and ryan, have all these things in common, so its like,"man i hope im not coming off as creepy". haha, i dont think that makes any sense. that happened the first time i talked to casie after a long time too, we were agreeing about all this stuff and i was thinking: "man i hope im not coming off as creepy, or i hope she doesnt think im just saying all this stuff". thats cool we have some tight things in common too. oh yea and your mom, we were hanging out the other night, and we ahd alot in common, then we hooked up. your mom is cool. yea, im sorry, i wish i was funny too.(what a cliche save)
so anyway, i think that after things get moving with the band(hopefully) that ill feel the tao again. i tried meditating to find it, but i remembered you cant search for it, it just IS.
man, im such a hippy.
i went to best buy and borders the other day and got: a miles davis album, a john coltrane album, a thelonious monk album, both of the mars voltas albums, steal this book, reefer madness, and requiem for a dream. im fucking spoiled. all three jazz albums kick ass, i feel like a better musician now that im listening to so many different things, reggae, modern rock, classic rock, jazz, but labels suck, im listening to more diverse music. COOL. reefer madness was funny, but boring. steal this book is almost worthless nowadays, but its still great. requiem for a dream has to be the saddest movie ive ever seen. and the mars volta albuma are actually really cool. new list of favorite bands: rx bandits, sublime, mars volta, the jimi hendrix experience, the exit. speaking of hendrix.
the music the jimi hendrix experience made was the closest thing to The Tao that i can think of, especially electric lady land. i dont know how to explain it, just the way everything flows, the way it feels, its just love. bandits are close to having music thats taoist, the mars volta are alittle further off, but their latest album is closer than their first, so well see what happens. i dont think any of that will make sense to anyone. hmmmmm, maybe later.
i smoked a j on the way to school friday, monday, tuesday, and wensday, then i ran out, bummer. but its just like they say in easy rider "save that joint for the morning, it gives you a whole new way of looking at the day". but everyday is kinda bad, so its good i ran out. it was nice though, i wasnt really smacked, just like, the feeling good, playful, happy kinda high. i could still pay attention in class and everything, i was just chilled out and more receptive and expressive. it was nice.
anyway, i have to do the trash now, so i guess im done updating. im talking to all you crazy kids who read my journal. you crazy cats.
these journals things are kinda gay. i mean, its almost like a big call for attention. whatever, i know ill still update. nooch.
cicatriz esp is the shit
i finally finished island. it was beautiful. huxley talked about every issue, i think he really did think up utopia. cool.
i decided no human can live life without meditation. natural meditation AND meditation induced through smoking/eating marijuana or eating shrooms. even when you think you have yourself figured out you can still surprise yourself. mr huxley said it best too, talking about liberation of yourself, he described a mushroom trip in the last chapter and what farnaby realized..."knowledgeless understanding", hmmmm sounds alot like something familiar.
speaking of which, i havnt felt the tao in a long time. last fall i felt it everywhere, it was really nice. i was completely at peace with myself and my surroundings. i dont know, i havnt felt it since winter closed in on everything. ive been worried about the future and graduation and such.
me and ryans band with frester and matt is progressing. i really hope that whole thing works out. we all go together so well. its like we were all waiting for this band to happen to us or something. but its kinda got that creepy thing too, like, especially me and ryan, have all these things in common, so its like,"man i hope im not coming off as creepy". haha, i dont think that makes any sense. that happened the first time i talked to casie after a long time too, we were agreeing about all this stuff and i was thinking: "man i hope im not coming off as creepy, or i hope she doesnt think im just saying all this stuff". thats cool we have some tight things in common too. oh yea and your mom, we were hanging out the other night, and we ahd alot in common, then we hooked up. your mom is cool. yea, im sorry, i wish i was funny too.(what a cliche save)
so anyway, i think that after things get moving with the band(hopefully) that ill feel the tao again. i tried meditating to find it, but i remembered you cant search for it, it just IS.
man, im such a hippy.
i went to best buy and borders the other day and got: a miles davis album, a john coltrane album, a thelonious monk album, both of the mars voltas albums, steal this book, reefer madness, and requiem for a dream. im fucking spoiled. all three jazz albums kick ass, i feel like a better musician now that im listening to so many different things, reggae, modern rock, classic rock, jazz, but labels suck, im listening to more diverse music. COOL. reefer madness was funny, but boring. steal this book is almost worthless nowadays, but its still great. requiem for a dream has to be the saddest movie ive ever seen. and the mars volta albuma are actually really cool. new list of favorite bands: rx bandits, sublime, mars volta, the jimi hendrix experience, the exit. speaking of hendrix.
the music the jimi hendrix experience made was the closest thing to The Tao that i can think of, especially electric lady land. i dont know how to explain it, just the way everything flows, the way it feels, its just love. bandits are close to having music thats taoist, the mars volta are alittle further off, but their latest album is closer than their first, so well see what happens. i dont think any of that will make sense to anyone. hmmmmm, maybe later.
i smoked a j on the way to school friday, monday, tuesday, and wensday, then i ran out, bummer. but its just like they say in easy rider "save that joint for the morning, it gives you a whole new way of looking at the day". but everyday is kinda bad, so its good i ran out. it was nice though, i wasnt really smacked, just like, the feeling good, playful, happy kinda high. i could still pay attention in class and everything, i was just chilled out and more receptive and expressive. it was nice.
anyway, i have to do the trash now, so i guess im done updating. im talking to all you crazy kids who read my journal. you crazy cats.
these journals things are kinda gay. i mean, its almost like a big call for attention. whatever, i know ill still update. nooch.
cicatriz esp is the shit