youve got nothing to prove, so just keep it natural
New Album nearing completion
So now deadlines have been set and the new album is nearing completion, and our songs like all living things that mature are starting to take on a life of their own. They become something much much larger than the creators That is the humility in putting any living thing into the world, you won't know how great it is until you set it free. These songs are the most honest rxb songs have ever been.. not so much in the lyrical themes but in their musical being. The songs have been raised not to fear being a certain anything, to be whatever they want to be. is this some hippy shit? maybe. Art is so much bigger than us though, and whenever you take the time to be humbled and appreciate being a part and/or creator-manipulator of something as great as music than you'll probably sound like some crazy existentialist.. not that existentialism is crazy. we'll see how it goes.
-steve choi, rx bandits
ooooooooooo man. i love what he says about the songs taking on a life of their own. thats so inspiring. well...maybe thats not the right word, but thats just awesome. thats so true about the resignation too, each song is like a huge painting with sound and words and images. cool. i also read in an interview with matt that during the writing of the resignation they did two things that they think made the songs better, haha. one was while they were writing when they felt like a chorus should come next they did something else and then the chorus, just to make the songs weird to play. the other was that they were all written to an image (falling down the mountain is supposed to be falling down a mountain) and that they wanted to get their friend to make an anime dvd expanding on each of the images. too bad it doesnt look like thats gonna happen. cant wait till the new album though.
so my latest meditation, which wasnt even in the trance, just kinda thinking, which is awesome cause i didnt even have to meditate, maybe this means something, like my mind is maturing or something. my english teacher would kill me for writing that sentence haha. but anyway, i was thinking about "you never love someone like you did first" which is completely true. your molded to your first love, all of your first times are with them, experimenting, having fun, growing up with them, learning through them, its beautiful. but then i was thinking what about second love...its not as strong? but i think it is, just in a different way. you can still grow and learn and become molded to that person, of course you will never have the "first times" part of the relationship, but love for the person and the growth you help each other achieve is still there, and still beautiful. i think these thoughts helped me move on more from val. like before i was kinda like "fuck it, i can never love someone like that again, ill try, but noway it can really happen", i kinda just got rid of that whole thing. maybe now im free from her. as long as were not talking i guess. whatever, i just think that i understand love better and i could actually love again without the pain i felt from that whole thing still being there. i was just afraid before, now id like to believe im not.
also i had more childhood memories. when i was maybe four or five, during the summer, i went to some big park for the day with two of my little kid buddys and one of their sisters and moms. somehow our naturally stoned little kid minds got bored of the big huge park and we wandered off into the woods. our little place to hang out was this little "cave" in the trees with a tree alittle off to the left that you could easily climb and chill on, it was kinda leaning. we would go there and hang out and talk about going into the woods and look in and be scared and talk about it some more. we went to eat lunch and when we came back to that spot, having convinced ourselves that we could brave the forest, there were some big kids hanging out in the same spot. the "leader" was being a regular big kid and was all "ooo look at the little guys, too scared to go in the forest" and stuff like that. after a few minutes of getting taunted and being pissed (this is how i remember it) i ran into the little cave thing saying that i could go if i wanted, then the closet big kid stuck his leg out and tripped me. i cut my knees up on the dirt and rocks and started crying and the big kids laughed and we went home.
i have no other memory of me ever taking a stand like that.
in my entire life.
this is the first time ive thought past the story, so this is some live shit lol. but maybe this event contributed to my inability to assert myself. who knows.
anyways.
im almost done reading island, its beautiful. i officially like quiznos more than subway. my sun burn is getting better. im lifting heavier weights and doing more crunches. im absorbing more information than i have since third grade when i decided school was useless. im eating healthier foods and doing more exercises on drums and guitar. reading ALOT. i feel good about my self lately. like im growing.
i need to update the picture of me.
i read a really good article on bob marley in rolling stone yesterday. then there was a 15 page section "about a band" that was advertising the clothing they were wearing in each photo. sometimes they really disgust me.
o they also said this about the bandits:
"..Rx Bandits began young as an orange county ska-punk band but quickly progressed fueled by musicality and creative combinations of rythms and melody. They soon abandoned loyalty to any genre and made a sound completely original. Love them or hate them, it cannot be denied that their sound was created by them and is completely their own, and are better musicians than every band out there.." -rolling stone
yea.
So now deadlines have been set and the new album is nearing completion, and our songs like all living things that mature are starting to take on a life of their own. They become something much much larger than the creators That is the humility in putting any living thing into the world, you won't know how great it is until you set it free. These songs are the most honest rxb songs have ever been.. not so much in the lyrical themes but in their musical being. The songs have been raised not to fear being a certain anything, to be whatever they want to be. is this some hippy shit? maybe. Art is so much bigger than us though, and whenever you take the time to be humbled and appreciate being a part and/or creator-manipulator of something as great as music than you'll probably sound like some crazy existentialist.. not that existentialism is crazy. we'll see how it goes.
-steve choi, rx bandits
ooooooooooo man. i love what he says about the songs taking on a life of their own. thats so inspiring. well...maybe thats not the right word, but thats just awesome. thats so true about the resignation too, each song is like a huge painting with sound and words and images. cool. i also read in an interview with matt that during the writing of the resignation they did two things that they think made the songs better, haha. one was while they were writing when they felt like a chorus should come next they did something else and then the chorus, just to make the songs weird to play. the other was that they were all written to an image (falling down the mountain is supposed to be falling down a mountain) and that they wanted to get their friend to make an anime dvd expanding on each of the images. too bad it doesnt look like thats gonna happen. cant wait till the new album though.
so my latest meditation, which wasnt even in the trance, just kinda thinking, which is awesome cause i didnt even have to meditate, maybe this means something, like my mind is maturing or something. my english teacher would kill me for writing that sentence haha. but anyway, i was thinking about "you never love someone like you did first" which is completely true. your molded to your first love, all of your first times are with them, experimenting, having fun, growing up with them, learning through them, its beautiful. but then i was thinking what about second love...its not as strong? but i think it is, just in a different way. you can still grow and learn and become molded to that person, of course you will never have the "first times" part of the relationship, but love for the person and the growth you help each other achieve is still there, and still beautiful. i think these thoughts helped me move on more from val. like before i was kinda like "fuck it, i can never love someone like that again, ill try, but noway it can really happen", i kinda just got rid of that whole thing. maybe now im free from her. as long as were not talking i guess. whatever, i just think that i understand love better and i could actually love again without the pain i felt from that whole thing still being there. i was just afraid before, now id like to believe im not.
also i had more childhood memories. when i was maybe four or five, during the summer, i went to some big park for the day with two of my little kid buddys and one of their sisters and moms. somehow our naturally stoned little kid minds got bored of the big huge park and we wandered off into the woods. our little place to hang out was this little "cave" in the trees with a tree alittle off to the left that you could easily climb and chill on, it was kinda leaning. we would go there and hang out and talk about going into the woods and look in and be scared and talk about it some more. we went to eat lunch and when we came back to that spot, having convinced ourselves that we could brave the forest, there were some big kids hanging out in the same spot. the "leader" was being a regular big kid and was all "ooo look at the little guys, too scared to go in the forest" and stuff like that. after a few minutes of getting taunted and being pissed (this is how i remember it) i ran into the little cave thing saying that i could go if i wanted, then the closet big kid stuck his leg out and tripped me. i cut my knees up on the dirt and rocks and started crying and the big kids laughed and we went home.
i have no other memory of me ever taking a stand like that.
in my entire life.
this is the first time ive thought past the story, so this is some live shit lol. but maybe this event contributed to my inability to assert myself. who knows.
anyways.
im almost done reading island, its beautiful. i officially like quiznos more than subway. my sun burn is getting better. im lifting heavier weights and doing more crunches. im absorbing more information than i have since third grade when i decided school was useless. im eating healthier foods and doing more exercises on drums and guitar. reading ALOT. i feel good about my self lately. like im growing.
i need to update the picture of me.
i read a really good article on bob marley in rolling stone yesterday. then there was a 15 page section "about a band" that was advertising the clothing they were wearing in each photo. sometimes they really disgust me.
o they also said this about the bandits:
"..Rx Bandits began young as an orange county ska-punk band but quickly progressed fueled by musicality and creative combinations of rythms and melody. They soon abandoned loyalty to any genre and made a sound completely original. Love them or hate them, it cannot be denied that their sound was created by them and is completely their own, and are better musicians than every band out there.." -rolling stone
yea.