Aww shit.
Woah woah woah. What a shitty week. Not the whiny self-pity shitty that I mostly associate with college/UPS life. But actually shitty. For some reason that makes all the difference.
Money. That's the word. Was never a big deal at all to me, which was probs part of the problem, cause I didn't have respect for it. It's just there and I use it, sometimes use it when it's not there, and when I don't have it I do nothing at all (except bum). Money hasn't stressed me out too much. Which worked until my wrecklessness became a steaming pile of shit.
Being at the bottom of the well is actually a kind of comfort and driving force. I know I can get things back to a stable state, which will just take some time and effort and the self-control I'm not used to accessing. And if I can do that much, I can climb higher than that and prepare myself for things better than the status quo. Annnnd I've got some ideas!
I also like stripping.
That is... stripping away old tendencies that no longer work for me!! (Thanks astrology this week and I Ching)
I dedicate this week to: Stacy, my mom, Max, Katrina, my accident witness guy, Kitty, and J. Krishnamurti
and I mean that with much love :D
I'm like, MOTIVATED. And cheerful. About the future. A near future that looks like a meadow of shit. And when one is in a meadow... one must frolick!!!
(Fun fact from this week was I got in a little car accident-- nothing serious, just scratches on the cars involved, and it was kinda funny. I mean, a damn good first accident exp)
Money. That's the word. Was never a big deal at all to me, which was probs part of the problem, cause I didn't have respect for it. It's just there and I use it, sometimes use it when it's not there, and when I don't have it I do nothing at all (except bum). Money hasn't stressed me out too much. Which worked until my wrecklessness became a steaming pile of shit.
Being at the bottom of the well is actually a kind of comfort and driving force. I know I can get things back to a stable state, which will just take some time and effort and the self-control I'm not used to accessing. And if I can do that much, I can climb higher than that and prepare myself for things better than the status quo. Annnnd I've got some ideas!
I also like stripping.
That is... stripping away old tendencies that no longer work for me!! (Thanks astrology this week and I Ching)
I dedicate this week to: Stacy, my mom, Max, Katrina, my accident witness guy, Kitty, and J. Krishnamurti
and I mean that with much love :D
I'm like, MOTIVATED. And cheerful. About the future. A near future that looks like a meadow of shit. And when one is in a meadow... one must frolick!!!
(Fun fact from this week was I got in a little car accident-- nothing serious, just scratches on the cars involved, and it was kinda funny. I mean, a damn good first accident exp)