It's Likely They're Just Jealous And Jaded
So my dad left on Saturday for Idaho. I miss him already. The Christmas gift for my parents went over pretty well. I'd found a picture of them together taken pretty near after they met in 1979. It was a wallet sized photo, so I had it enlarged to an 8x10 and I put a copy in a frame for both of them. I got my sister and I 5x7s. They thought it was cute. I'm glad, because everytime I look at that photo, it makes me smile. I wanted them to feel the same. Go me. While Dad was home, we played an extensive amount of Scrabble. I have this problem. I always come up with excellent words that are either really cool or will bring in the big points, but something always happens and my plans are foiled. It's really not very fair. :oP I was so intent on putting "vinyl" on the board that I even skipped my turns. Stupid. Needless to say, I was rarely the champion. However, all of this is good practice for when Aleece and I play this semester. We are going to play all the time. It will be grand.
Megs is leaving for France on Saturday. This is very weird and strange for me. I haven't been away from her since the 6th grade. She's been very important to me at school thus far. I think I might be lost without her old presence there. Michelle and Menna are going to be gone as well. Too much, too much. Thank goodness Kristy, Annie, and Christine are back, though. I really missed them. Even though I'm sad about everyone leaving, I'm excited for this semester. Aleece will be living with Emma in Whitehouse and will therefore be not far from Raj and I. Good times.
I really want to be focused and determined. I want to be able to get everything done so I have time to spend with myself and my friends. Rajani and I need to take roommate dates to the Bohm. I need to play Scrabble. I need to just BE. Is it so wrong that I'm still deciding on New Years resolutions? I mean, we're not that far in. I think it's alright. Don't you think?
Does everyone hit this point where they have no idea whatsoever what it is that they are doing? Suddenly everything I was thinking is changed and everything I wanted is not as important as the things I might really need. I'm through taking crap. In general. I'm tired of doing things because I'm SUPPOSED to. I want to be Erika and figure out who the hell she might be. Who she wants to become. There are so many things I want to do. Is is normal for college juniors to be completely lost? I'm pretty sure I'm not alone in this.
I feel so completely on the edge right now. On the verge of something I can't even see. I feel like I'm going to cry so often. I don't even know why. I miss my Aleece. *sigh* I think I need to go to bed before I spin myself out of control. I'll be ok in the morning. :o) I'm sure.
-E
P.S. This song is amazing, even if it is a cover. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. That's it.
Megs is leaving for France on Saturday. This is very weird and strange for me. I haven't been away from her since the 6th grade. She's been very important to me at school thus far. I think I might be lost without her old presence there. Michelle and Menna are going to be gone as well. Too much, too much. Thank goodness Kristy, Annie, and Christine are back, though. I really missed them. Even though I'm sad about everyone leaving, I'm excited for this semester. Aleece will be living with Emma in Whitehouse and will therefore be not far from Raj and I. Good times.
I really want to be focused and determined. I want to be able to get everything done so I have time to spend with myself and my friends. Rajani and I need to take roommate dates to the Bohm. I need to play Scrabble. I need to just BE. Is it so wrong that I'm still deciding on New Years resolutions? I mean, we're not that far in. I think it's alright. Don't you think?
Does everyone hit this point where they have no idea whatsoever what it is that they are doing? Suddenly everything I was thinking is changed and everything I wanted is not as important as the things I might really need. I'm through taking crap. In general. I'm tired of doing things because I'm SUPPOSED to. I want to be Erika and figure out who the hell she might be. Who she wants to become. There are so many things I want to do. Is is normal for college juniors to be completely lost? I'm pretty sure I'm not alone in this.
I feel so completely on the edge right now. On the verge of something I can't even see. I feel like I'm going to cry so often. I don't even know why. I miss my Aleece. *sigh* I think I need to go to bed before I spin myself out of control. I'll be ok in the morning. :o) I'm sure.
-E
P.S. This song is amazing, even if it is a cover. A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. That's it.