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so i've been thinking...
it's really nice to be in the ville this summer. when i'm not working, i'm hanging out with holly or tracy and megs. it kind of makes me feel grounded, like a have a permanent place. of course, i know this is only an illusion. i've become one of those people that no longer actually belongs to their hometown (my issue involving library cards recently is just one example). stevensville is the kind of place that is almost unchanging. i mean, it changes, but it changes so slowly that it's hard to notice sometimes. it's weird, because sometimes i feel that i am radically different from the girl i was when i called this place home and had an address and phone number here. but then i think that maybe i haven't changed at all. maybe when i'm in the ville, i'm my truest self. i can't really decide, because that might mean that i've been pretending when i've been in other places.
i don't know if i'm going to grad school next month. i think it might be more financially responsible (which seems like a really grownup phrase) to just move to NC and see if i can defer enrollment and establish residency to cut down on tuition costs. yikes. tracy and megs and i were looking at apartments and whatnot tonight online. it keeps hitting me that i'm not just goofing around when i look up these places. i actually have to do this. i'm not going back to albion in a couple of weeks. when did that happen?
and, really, what happened to being able to be a kid? *sigh* i miss those days, those bike riding days; the days when i played basketball in my driveway with caleb and pete; the days that holly and i watched stupid tv in the mornings; the days when we had video scavenger hunts; the days when everyone came home.
also, people have been annoying me lately. it's silly not to answer IMs. it's really lame to not reply to messages and, in effect, ignore people. it is especially obnoxious when it was only a month or two ago that hanging out was discussed. and now what? silence. grrrrrr. how old are you? come on.
okay, i need to go to bed. i hope this post has satisfied what i am sure has been a terrible hunger for news and such from me. *cough*michelle*cough* i'm sorry if it wasn't newsy enough, but that's the way the bee bumbles these days. haha.
-E
it's really nice to be in the ville this summer. when i'm not working, i'm hanging out with holly or tracy and megs. it kind of makes me feel grounded, like a have a permanent place. of course, i know this is only an illusion. i've become one of those people that no longer actually belongs to their hometown (my issue involving library cards recently is just one example). stevensville is the kind of place that is almost unchanging. i mean, it changes, but it changes so slowly that it's hard to notice sometimes. it's weird, because sometimes i feel that i am radically different from the girl i was when i called this place home and had an address and phone number here. but then i think that maybe i haven't changed at all. maybe when i'm in the ville, i'm my truest self. i can't really decide, because that might mean that i've been pretending when i've been in other places.
i don't know if i'm going to grad school next month. i think it might be more financially responsible (which seems like a really grownup phrase) to just move to NC and see if i can defer enrollment and establish residency to cut down on tuition costs. yikes. tracy and megs and i were looking at apartments and whatnot tonight online. it keeps hitting me that i'm not just goofing around when i look up these places. i actually have to do this. i'm not going back to albion in a couple of weeks. when did that happen?
and, really, what happened to being able to be a kid? *sigh* i miss those days, those bike riding days; the days when i played basketball in my driveway with caleb and pete; the days that holly and i watched stupid tv in the mornings; the days when we had video scavenger hunts; the days when everyone came home.
also, people have been annoying me lately. it's silly not to answer IMs. it's really lame to not reply to messages and, in effect, ignore people. it is especially obnoxious when it was only a month or two ago that hanging out was discussed. and now what? silence. grrrrrr. how old are you? come on.
okay, i need to go to bed. i hope this post has satisfied what i am sure has been a terrible hunger for news and such from me. *cough*michelle*cough* i'm sorry if it wasn't newsy enough, but that's the way the bee bumbles these days. haha.
-E