I'm depressed today
I'm a bit upset because all of these things are piled up on my mind. They may seem trivial, but to me they are things that are important...or atleast enough so to make me feel this way.
For one, I discovered that my parents now owe a LOT of money to the gas company or we have no gas...and as winter...or even fall approaches, we are really gonna need gas for heating. We can't take hot baths, can't wash clothes. SOOOOO I think unless we can convince them to work out a deal, we are fucked. They're gonna let us die.
Another thing is that I guess a certain somebody (Dylan) has decided to replace his interest in my voice with the interest of another girls voice without telling me. I found out when by chance i went onto Dylan's Myspace and there was a message from Crystal, this girl that Brian has been using in a lot of his songs. I guess it's cause they always get together to do music and naturally you'll take the one who's there more often....not that I can help that. Fucking dick heads. Always giving me the cold shoulder....and yet I always turn the other cheek. I don't know why I insist on trying to find time to hang around Brian when I must not be important enough for him to ask me to hang out. You MAKE time for things you are interested in...for other things, things that aren't important enough to you, you simply have no time. Unless you have no ride, have to work on weird schedules, or are too broke to entertain....or some other realistic excuse.
(that would be my excuse most of the time).
I don't know if I can do the things I dream of....I can't seem to draw lately. So I can't go on with making my book or it'll look shitty. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh. My job stinks...I hate standing around all fucking day. I know I know Bitch and moan bitch and moan. >.>
Sorry.
For one, I discovered that my parents now owe a LOT of money to the gas company or we have no gas...and as winter...or even fall approaches, we are really gonna need gas for heating. We can't take hot baths, can't wash clothes. SOOOOO I think unless we can convince them to work out a deal, we are fucked. They're gonna let us die.
Another thing is that I guess a certain somebody (Dylan) has decided to replace his interest in my voice with the interest of another girls voice without telling me. I found out when by chance i went onto Dylan's Myspace and there was a message from Crystal, this girl that Brian has been using in a lot of his songs. I guess it's cause they always get together to do music and naturally you'll take the one who's there more often....not that I can help that. Fucking dick heads. Always giving me the cold shoulder....and yet I always turn the other cheek. I don't know why I insist on trying to find time to hang around Brian when I must not be important enough for him to ask me to hang out. You MAKE time for things you are interested in...for other things, things that aren't important enough to you, you simply have no time. Unless you have no ride, have to work on weird schedules, or are too broke to entertain....or some other realistic excuse.
(that would be my excuse most of the time).
I don't know if I can do the things I dream of....I can't seem to draw lately. So I can't go on with making my book or it'll look shitty. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh. My job stinks...I hate standing around all fucking day. I know I know Bitch and moan bitch and moan. >.>
Sorry.