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I haven’t cut for approximently …a few days but today I fucked it up. Ya see I invited 9 people to my bday party: Ashley, Stephanie, Kjirsten, Sara, Sarah, Kyri, Danielle, Christi, Kelly, Jackie, Tasha, and Jessica. Well they all just fuckin blew it off and said “w/e” and never called to say theyre going and now the only ones coming are Jackie, Danielle, Samantha, and Brandon, and Stephanie and kjristen. FUCK an A! first off, I duno Samantha and Brandon…I was hanign out at jackeis last night and theyre her friends who were over there and since I klnew Christi and Kelly and sarah are avoiding me and hate me I just told ppl to invite whoever the fuck they. Danielle and Jackie are the only ones who actually said they’ll come. Fuck im pissed. No one even gives a shit about me and I hate people. I always knew they weren’t real friends….but shit. They could have the decencyto say happy birthday or something. I don’t even care. Im not all into birthdays but I just cant believe these fuckers! Christi can go bc she and her mommy have to “run errands” FUCK! Like she has to go with her! I had plans to go to a concert with my old friends but I turned it down (“god” knows how much I LIVE for concerts too) to go to christi’s birthday party. And I got her the antichrist superstar Marilyn Manson cd. In the 3 years ive knwn Christi she hasn’t gotten me a bday present. Well im not saying bday presents are all important but at least a home made card would be halfway decent. FUCK them all. And sarah isn’t going bc Kelly isn’t and sara isn’t going bc its her moms bday. Why is my generation such fucking family kids? Sarah can be a loyal friend if she applies herself; but not to me…she only gives a shit about Kelly-the friend she stole from me…in doing so forced me and Kelly to get in a fight so that Kelly would cling to her even more……and Christi is a mommies girl and just is in love with her brother and is avoiding me and then denies it. Well yesterday at lunch some fucking group home chick was ganna tell on me for stealing cafeteria food. I don’t steal bc I cant afford it, bc I can. I steal to show superiority to the uptight fucks who work there….same reason manson says he steals. Well im going to return to cutting myself while listening to deadstar assembly…….FUCK THIS STUPID WORLD AND EVERYSINGLE ASSHOLE WHO LIVES IN IT!