My life and hell
My life at the minute resembles hell.
First off my perfect sister is getting more than enough attention from every member of our family including the ones she doesnt like. I've fallen out with my mum who was the only family member who did like me, and the man I love has gotten himself a girlfriend(very happy for you if you're reading this.)
I just feel like nothing in life is ever going to go my way ever again. It's my own fault really. I mean if I was a little nicer and thinner and prettier I could have the perfect life. But I'm so bitter and jealous and things like that.
I want to find my prince and have him take me away from the hell I live. Take me away to his castle and comfort me when I am down, kiss my forehead as I sleep and stay awake to watch me sleep making sure the bad things don't hurt me.
That's never gonna happen for me though. Every time I do find somebody who loves me I blow it because I'm stupid and selfish. I always take but never give. Why am I like this I don't know. I wish I did know so I could finally be happy in life.
Anyway. I'm gonna go slash my wrists and contemplate life.
First off my perfect sister is getting more than enough attention from every member of our family including the ones she doesnt like. I've fallen out with my mum who was the only family member who did like me, and the man I love has gotten himself a girlfriend(very happy for you if you're reading this.)
I just feel like nothing in life is ever going to go my way ever again. It's my own fault really. I mean if I was a little nicer and thinner and prettier I could have the perfect life. But I'm so bitter and jealous and things like that.
I want to find my prince and have him take me away from the hell I live. Take me away to his castle and comfort me when I am down, kiss my forehead as I sleep and stay awake to watch me sleep making sure the bad things don't hurt me.
That's never gonna happen for me though. Every time I do find somebody who loves me I blow it because I'm stupid and selfish. I always take but never give. Why am I like this I don't know. I wish I did know so I could finally be happy in life.
Anyway. I'm gonna go slash my wrists and contemplate life.