sad times
the past 2.5 weeks have been the longest and shortest of my life. The hours drip like mollasses on a cold day, yet run together like hot oil across the stove. I'm ready for a bit of balance in my life.
Since this all started, i've wanted to call and run into a specific pair of arms. Not only would it be inconvinent, it would also be a complete retrogression of how far i've come. All i think about are the happy times and the fun and the love. I think i want that safety back. I've been on my own and in total control of everything in mylife. Its hard. I miss the fact that I had someone else to rest my head on. Someone else wondering if i made it home. And someone else i could think about the same way.
I can't look for someone like this, i'll only end up with someone wrong for me. I've got towait and become comfortable with myself again. Its only when I'm not looking does someone saunter in to my life. *sigh* That'll be such a long wait. I've some healing/balancing to get done first. *pout*
Since this all started, i've wanted to call and run into a specific pair of arms. Not only would it be inconvinent, it would also be a complete retrogression of how far i've come. All i think about are the happy times and the fun and the love. I think i want that safety back. I've been on my own and in total control of everything in mylife. Its hard. I miss the fact that I had someone else to rest my head on. Someone else wondering if i made it home. And someone else i could think about the same way.
I can't look for someone like this, i'll only end up with someone wrong for me. I've got towait and become comfortable with myself again. Its only when I'm not looking does someone saunter in to my life. *sigh* That'll be such a long wait. I've some healing/balancing to get done first. *pout*