ring and love and whatnot
i just have to add to my random in-love talk. i finally took my engagement ring off. i never take it off and i never leave it off. i've had it off now for about a month. i think spreading david's ashes on October 4th helped. i also want to make sure scott knows i am with him, fully with him and that he's who i want to be with. i don't want him to think i'm still living in the past. i'll always keep my ring and i am pretty sure i'll wear it on days that i'm thinking of dave...i'll probably wear it around christmas a lot. and when i'm with his family. but it's strangely comforting to know i can put it away and hold scott's hand with out that symbol of my love for david right there. i hope he understands...i'm sure he does. i never felt like i could take it off before, and i wouldn't have, even if someone had asked me to. that would have been it. you can't handle me wearing this ring, you can't handle my past. scott has never made me feel bad about talking about david or visiting his family. he really is supportive and i can't wait for susan and russell to meet him. i haven't dated anyone that i really wanted to introduce to them, but i know that scott is "a keeper" and i want them to meet him. i think they will really like him. and it is my choice to take it off, scott has never mentioned it to me. i think he noticed a bit when i took it off at first and he gave me a sort of questioning look but then he just kissed me and i felt so found and connected. and loved.
