I was fucked up!
Hello girls, is a long time...well I had to do a hiatus, cause I had/haven't internet in my home and my job is consuming all my energies for write here-.-
I hope all of you are fine^^
I`m writing here right now cause I want to DIE! not really like this but literally.... I like write, and now I need write(my english continue being BAD x_x so I hope you can understand me),cause I'm upset with my current loving life...
Estoy destrozada;_; mas que destrozada;_; total y recontramente herida;_;!, God! I feel like I can't smile anymore.... if I smile to you, it's only a fake smile for hide my pain;_; I'm missing so much to Chris, and I don't know, yesterday at the night when I known the truth, Wow! I don't knew how acts in front of his bro-.- .....I hate cry in front of the people, but last night I just wanted cry right there fuck it! why the heck had to happen this?! WHY?!..........by one side this is the better, my family never would accept him, maybe he never love me, sometimes I felt like he doesn't care of me, but sometimes I felt like he really take care of me. Well at the last this is the right thing, that he finally lives together his baby and with the mom of this baby. I really feel like I lost my north again....I hate feel like this, it's like all is no sense.......I must recognize that I wanted break up with him, cause sometime he says so much stupid things >< (tambien porque no se arreglaba como yo quería)... but we're fine this last time, besides the way how all ended, is like his parents kidnap him! damn it! damn Chris! Why didn't he phoned me?! Everyone knows that he has left the city less me!!!! What the fuck was he thinking about?
Now I'm a single girl!.....I don't break up with him....and he neither with me.....Dios es como vivir en la insertidumbre! x_X
Damn boy! I knew that I should`ve to kicked him from my life!
I hope all of you are fine^^
I`m writing here right now cause I want to DIE! not really like this but literally.... I like write, and now I need write(my english continue being BAD x_x so I hope you can understand me),cause I'm upset with my current loving life...
Estoy destrozada;_; mas que destrozada;_; total y recontramente herida;_;!, God! I feel like I can't smile anymore.... if I smile to you, it's only a fake smile for hide my pain;_; I'm missing so much to Chris, and I don't know, yesterday at the night when I known the truth, Wow! I don't knew how acts in front of his bro-.- .....I hate cry in front of the people, but last night I just wanted cry right there fuck it! why the heck had to happen this?! WHY?!..........by one side this is the better, my family never would accept him, maybe he never love me, sometimes I felt like he doesn't care of me, but sometimes I felt like he really take care of me. Well at the last this is the right thing, that he finally lives together his baby and with the mom of this baby. I really feel like I lost my north again....I hate feel like this, it's like all is no sense.......I must recognize that I wanted break up with him, cause sometime he says so much stupid things >< (tambien porque no se arreglaba como yo quería)... but we're fine this last time, besides the way how all ended, is like his parents kidnap him! damn it! damn Chris! Why didn't he phoned me?! Everyone knows that he has left the city less me!!!! What the fuck was he thinking about?
Now I'm a single girl!.....I don't break up with him....and he neither with me.....Dios es como vivir en la insertidumbre! x_X
Damn boy! I knew that I should`ve to kicked him from my life!