i cried a little for real this time
i want to clear things up. Ashley did not make me cry the other night after formal. she thought she did, but i was just rubbing my eyes cause i was tired.
i did talk to her though tonight and got some things straightened up. i feel better now about the whole thing and i'm glad that i have friends to come to my defense but you guys really should not have bitched at Ashley like that. i'm a little pissed about that. maybe i'm just an ignorant little boy like that and don't have any experience with life. maybe i just want so badly to have someone to love and believe that i am willing to accept some things. of course, i maybe it just seems so worth it to me to compromise instead of just demand instant and permanent change. Ashley and I talked tonight though and i think we straightened some things out. when we finished talking though, i said i love you Ashley and she said i love you too. that is what made me cry. i have wanted to hear those words from someone who genuinely meant them and no matter what happens, for those few seconds, i had those words. i had that meaning. love is a wicked, crazy, spiteful, wonderful, and utterly unmatched thing. there is no other emotion that comes close and from it, all other emotions can be had.
i did talk to her though tonight and got some things straightened up. i feel better now about the whole thing and i'm glad that i have friends to come to my defense but you guys really should not have bitched at Ashley like that. i'm a little pissed about that. maybe i'm just an ignorant little boy like that and don't have any experience with life. maybe i just want so badly to have someone to love and believe that i am willing to accept some things. of course, i maybe it just seems so worth it to me to compromise instead of just demand instant and permanent change. Ashley and I talked tonight though and i think we straightened some things out. when we finished talking though, i said i love you Ashley and she said i love you too. that is what made me cry. i have wanted to hear those words from someone who genuinely meant them and no matter what happens, for those few seconds, i had those words. i had that meaning. love is a wicked, crazy, spiteful, wonderful, and utterly unmatched thing. there is no other emotion that comes close and from it, all other emotions can be had.