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Sometimes you really wish that life was like a movie. When I see scenerious on tv or movies, and then it happens in real life, it is completly different. Completly unexpected. And then there's no writer telling you the words to say, and no director telling you were to stand. No stage notes telling you what to do and how to act. Things suddenly explod into a stream of emotions and you have only the thoughts in your head telling you how to respond.
And then of course there is what runs through your mind. Things you never thought you would think. Things your ashamed of, things you don't want to fell, but most importanly confussion and fear. What are we supposed to do? As much as I like to thing of myself as grown, I'm not yet an adult. I mean, I don't know how old you really have to be in order to handle things that life throws at you. I guess your never really old enough, but right now I'm too young to know what to do.
I can't really write what all this is about, which is why I'm being vague, but I need to vent. Basically, something happened this weekend, and a lot of shit went down tonight. By the time I had a free chance, everyone I wanted to call was asleep, so right now I have to turn to my journal for solitude.
On a different subject, one of my friends shared something with us that I'm really glad he did. I guess we all really bonded tonight. You never know who you can count on until your put into a situation, and then you never know who is gonna make you feel safe.
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Also, I have recently come to question America's medical institution. And before tonight, that's who I was most pissed at. But tonight I had a little discussion with a cop, and he completly made me abandon any belief in the justive system.
And another thing is, even though I admit that I'm not an adult, that doesn't mean I'm stupid, and it doesn't mean that I lie, and it doesn't mean that I don't know what I'm talking about. In the past week I've never seen so much disorginazation where it has counted the most.
So anyway, I guess I'm done venting for the evening. Goodnight.
And then of course there is what runs through your mind. Things you never thought you would think. Things your ashamed of, things you don't want to fell, but most importanly confussion and fear. What are we supposed to do? As much as I like to thing of myself as grown, I'm not yet an adult. I mean, I don't know how old you really have to be in order to handle things that life throws at you. I guess your never really old enough, but right now I'm too young to know what to do.
I can't really write what all this is about, which is why I'm being vague, but I need to vent. Basically, something happened this weekend, and a lot of shit went down tonight. By the time I had a free chance, everyone I wanted to call was asleep, so right now I have to turn to my journal for solitude.
On a different subject, one of my friends shared something with us that I'm really glad he did. I guess we all really bonded tonight. You never know who you can count on until your put into a situation, and then you never know who is gonna make you feel safe.
,
Also, I have recently come to question America's medical institution. And before tonight, that's who I was most pissed at. But tonight I had a little discussion with a cop, and he completly made me abandon any belief in the justive system.
And another thing is, even though I admit that I'm not an adult, that doesn't mean I'm stupid, and it doesn't mean that I lie, and it doesn't mean that I don't know what I'm talking about. In the past week I've never seen so much disorginazation where it has counted the most.
So anyway, I guess I'm done venting for the evening. Goodnight.