home suckz
I hate when my sister and mother fight.
I always seem to get caught in the middle , and no matter how many times it happens the awkward feeling of betraying someone(whoever's side I didn't defend)always stays.I feel sometimes like I wish I could just slap both of them and tell them that there is no war between mother and daughter.That the times of when everyone could smile and joke with each other are getting harder and harder to remember.
When the tension is so thick and solid you feel suffocated, the room is too small, and you want to run but you know you can't.And afterward everyone leaves and you still can't move, and your insides just aren't there, you feel empty.So completely alone.
When your with them separately they're fun and kind loving people but as soon as they see each other it's like they're possessed, their faces become hard and stony, and they're ready to snap and break anything or one who is unfortunate enough to be there.
Where it comes even to the point that they'll talk and complain about each other behind the others back and all you can do is sit quietly and wish that they would just stop.
Just stop fighting.Just stop hurting you.Just stop hurting each other.Just stop all of it.
When you feel sad and alone, hurting and no one can help. When you wish you had someone to give you a safe haven. How much better everything could feel if you had somewhere and some one to go to when you're alone. Somewhere for when my house feels more like jail then a home. Somewhere I can be selfish for once in my life and just take comfort.
Somewhere I can just feel loved. ♥
I always seem to get caught in the middle , and no matter how many times it happens the awkward feeling of betraying someone(whoever's side I didn't defend)always stays.I feel sometimes like I wish I could just slap both of them and tell them that there is no war between mother and daughter.That the times of when everyone could smile and joke with each other are getting harder and harder to remember.
When the tension is so thick and solid you feel suffocated, the room is too small, and you want to run but you know you can't.And afterward everyone leaves and you still can't move, and your insides just aren't there, you feel empty.So completely alone.
When your with them separately they're fun and kind loving people but as soon as they see each other it's like they're possessed, their faces become hard and stony, and they're ready to snap and break anything or one who is unfortunate enough to be there.
Where it comes even to the point that they'll talk and complain about each other behind the others back and all you can do is sit quietly and wish that they would just stop.
Just stop fighting.Just stop hurting you.Just stop hurting each other.Just stop all of it.
When you feel sad and alone, hurting and no one can help. When you wish you had someone to give you a safe haven. How much better everything could feel if you had somewhere and some one to go to when you're alone. Somewhere for when my house feels more like jail then a home. Somewhere I can be selfish for once in my life and just take comfort.
Somewhere I can just feel loved. ♥