and so it goes...
im excited for school as crazy as that sounds.im sick of pondering of what to do next with my time.seems like there is nothing to do and no one to do anything with...piss...i called 4 people today to see what was up(i got sent home from work early-wanted to hangout-kinda'?)2 didnt answer,1 was with a "friend"(prolly about to get X rated),and the other poor person was in class(summer class sometimes bites it)...it sucks bcuz im trying my damnedest to spend time with everyone and no one can!well once school starts i will feel like a real ass because i wont get to see anyone anymore...but that is my life story...but then it seems like it bites me in the ass later..o well...tough love em...tough love...
work has actually improved...people have grown on me,and some of the people being assholes to others have learned that they are NOT permitted to speak or treat me in a condescending way just because I am younger than they are.who gives a shit anyway tho?!?! At least i can go to work and have more focus,there is one less person to distract me,but damn I will admit...I sometimes miss the occasional distraction,i think it kept me sane at work more often than not,but whatever i made my choice,and well "pain is inevitable,suffering is optional,"sad but true...ooooooo....somebody returned my phone call...nope sorry shoulda called earlier when i wasn't so damn comfortable in my PJ's....Ive begun to feel really sick anyway...something does not feel right...yuck...feel very nauseated...eww...so angry at "not feeling good"-ness...piss.i wanted to go visit my friend tommorow-so sad so sad he's leaving to w.virginia to go to school...ah i'll tough it out i suppose....or not ive got until the 3rd to go see him...
im displeased with myself...ive let my family get to me...time for an escape id say...or a way to get them to leave me alone for the time being at least...ha!my phone is ringing...too far away now-it fell on behind the desk-don't feel like getting it...
okay feeling worse-i think i will lie down for awhile beginning to feel dizzy and disoriented...
work has actually improved...people have grown on me,and some of the people being assholes to others have learned that they are NOT permitted to speak or treat me in a condescending way just because I am younger than they are.who gives a shit anyway tho?!?! At least i can go to work and have more focus,there is one less person to distract me,but damn I will admit...I sometimes miss the occasional distraction,i think it kept me sane at work more often than not,but whatever i made my choice,and well "pain is inevitable,suffering is optional,"sad but true...ooooooo....somebody returned my phone call...nope sorry shoulda called earlier when i wasn't so damn comfortable in my PJ's....Ive begun to feel really sick anyway...something does not feel right...yuck...feel very nauseated...eww...so angry at "not feeling good"-ness...piss.i wanted to go visit my friend tommorow-so sad so sad he's leaving to w.virginia to go to school...ah i'll tough it out i suppose....or not ive got until the 3rd to go see him...
im displeased with myself...ive let my family get to me...time for an escape id say...or a way to get them to leave me alone for the time being at least...ha!my phone is ringing...too far away now-it fell on behind the desk-don't feel like getting it...
okay feeling worse-i think i will lie down for awhile beginning to feel dizzy and disoriented...