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I had heaps of mad sex last night =)
Very in love with Steve right now.
Satisfying our needs are awesome.
Good weekend. Sunday was fucked though. I'd like to say a really special THANK YOU to Lia for ringing me at an ungodly hour of the morning to listen to me talk my head off while i was very off my head and upset. And also to Mish, for having a good chat with me and knock some sense into me. And sitting with on stairs down near shop with me... while i looked like a mess with no shoes on and FINALLY admitting i'd hit rock bottom.
I announced to Steve yesterday that i am quitting toking. For good. That's it.. no more.
We organised that he will not do it near me/ be on it when he see's me.
I will not put myself in a situation where i'll get tempted, or know there is ice around. Therefore i am staying home for a week or two to get over the initial withdrawl period... then ill start coming out again gradually and get used to saying no, or enjoying other things.
I am 100% dead serious about this.
I cried all day yesterday because of it(followed by my mad sex)
I feel like someone has died. Someone HAS died. The junkie in me... she'll be gone soon.
I even told my mum this morning that i'm quitting. I CANNOT LET HER DOWN. I will not let her down.
I'm just really looking forward to the future- where pure happiness awaits me.
I'm hoping by my birthday (6weeks away) that i look and feel greta by then. I'll have lost weight, my face wont be so haggered, and my skin will have cleared up :)
Steve and i make 4 months on thursday.
ANYWAY- One little compliment can make you feel amazing.
So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind how great you are.
Give me an ego boost bitches.
Very in love with Steve right now.
Satisfying our needs are awesome.
Good weekend. Sunday was fucked though. I'd like to say a really special THANK YOU to Lia for ringing me at an ungodly hour of the morning to listen to me talk my head off while i was very off my head and upset. And also to Mish, for having a good chat with me and knock some sense into me. And sitting with on stairs down near shop with me... while i looked like a mess with no shoes on and FINALLY admitting i'd hit rock bottom.
I announced to Steve yesterday that i am quitting toking. For good. That's it.. no more.
We organised that he will not do it near me/ be on it when he see's me.
I will not put myself in a situation where i'll get tempted, or know there is ice around. Therefore i am staying home for a week or two to get over the initial withdrawl period... then ill start coming out again gradually and get used to saying no, or enjoying other things.
I am 100% dead serious about this.
I cried all day yesterday because of it(followed by my mad sex)
I feel like someone has died. Someone HAS died. The junkie in me... she'll be gone soon.
I even told my mum this morning that i'm quitting. I CANNOT LET HER DOWN. I will not let her down.
I'm just really looking forward to the future- where pure happiness awaits me.
I'm hoping by my birthday (6weeks away) that i look and feel greta by then. I'll have lost weight, my face wont be so haggered, and my skin will have cleared up :)
Steve and i make 4 months on thursday.
ANYWAY- One little compliment can make you feel amazing.
So give me a compliment, anything in the entire world, even that my shoelaces are pretty. Put this in your journal. And once you get some comments, put that entry in a memory or tag and when you are feeling down, just go to that entry and this will remind how great you are.
Give me an ego boost bitches.