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Because im beginning to feel shitter and shitter- I've worked out a game plan.
I will no longer have 4 day weekends.
I will only go to the radio station with steve every alternate weekend to dosage.
I saw all my raver babys on the weeekend (so far THE BEST night of my life) so there is now no need to rave for a little while til i get my head together.
I bet anyone who reads my journal is thinking "yeah yeah she's said shes getting off it a thousand times before"
But this time is different. I WANT to get off it... or slow down should i say. AND im being reasonabkle about it.
One night a week is enough.
Life has to have something better than i am settling for.
I love life when i havent had any gear for a few days. I'm so excited.
I'll lose weight too becoz ill have the power to say no to food (i am currently sitting UNCOMFORTABLY at 62kg)
spoke to steve about my weight today and i asked him if im getting too fat for him
"of course id prefer to be with the girl i first fell in love with.... remember, you've put on 10kg since then"
didn't stop me this afternoon though... came home after shoving my face with all the cakes work- i still managed 4 fun size mars bars, half a pack of sakatas, a peach and a tub of yogurt. i havent even had dinner yet.
ill also save money. ill be able to pay back dicko, buy clothes, treat my yummy boyfriend with gifts and take him out places like he has done for me the past 2 months i was unemployed.
ive got to go... ive got things to do.
but yeah
im looking forward to the future.
id also like to say- I LOVE MY JOB. I love it. It was all i ever needed.
I had THE worst morning. I cried heaps. Soon as i got to work i felt fine. And happy.
I love my work, and i love my boyfriend, and i am soon going to love my life.
And hopefully myself =) xoxo
I will no longer have 4 day weekends.
I will only go to the radio station with steve every alternate weekend to dosage.
I saw all my raver babys on the weeekend (so far THE BEST night of my life) so there is now no need to rave for a little while til i get my head together.
I bet anyone who reads my journal is thinking "yeah yeah she's said shes getting off it a thousand times before"
But this time is different. I WANT to get off it... or slow down should i say. AND im being reasonabkle about it.
One night a week is enough.
Life has to have something better than i am settling for.
I love life when i havent had any gear for a few days. I'm so excited.
I'll lose weight too becoz ill have the power to say no to food (i am currently sitting UNCOMFORTABLY at 62kg)
spoke to steve about my weight today and i asked him if im getting too fat for him
"of course id prefer to be with the girl i first fell in love with.... remember, you've put on 10kg since then"
didn't stop me this afternoon though... came home after shoving my face with all the cakes work- i still managed 4 fun size mars bars, half a pack of sakatas, a peach and a tub of yogurt. i havent even had dinner yet.
ill also save money. ill be able to pay back dicko, buy clothes, treat my yummy boyfriend with gifts and take him out places like he has done for me the past 2 months i was unemployed.
ive got to go... ive got things to do.
but yeah
im looking forward to the future.
id also like to say- I LOVE MY JOB. I love it. It was all i ever needed.
I had THE worst morning. I cried heaps. Soon as i got to work i felt fine. And happy.
I love my work, and i love my boyfriend, and i am soon going to love my life.
And hopefully myself =) xoxo