shit
ugh i cant handle stress for shit
everything is always so fucking confusing and hard, and just when i think its getting better, it always crashes down and becomes worse.
and aaron hasnt been home all day, he is hanging out with brian, even when i said i could have hung out for a little while, he still couldnt have had brian stop over at my house or anything cuz hes just fucking like that.
o well, i know you cant change people, so there is no use bitching about it, expecially to him cuz he'll just get pissed at me and we'll get in another big fight and he'll want to break up and blah blah blah.
i hate this shit so much!
no matter what i do i dont do it right
i still wonder why i even bother sometimes?
yea i know im whining and if you dont like it then u can fuck off. i need to get this out of my system into something and since i cant fuckin talk to anyone bcuz everyone seems to love blowing me off i have typed it all here.
its better than punching doors right?
well im gonna go get in the shower and probably go to bed so it will be one day closer til this crap is done with.
-jess-