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i got an email from soph today and it was sooo good to hear from her, but mannnn now im sorta sad. she said the new americans are really cool, but grrr some weird, twisted part of me wanted them to suck because i dunno, i just get jealous thinking that three new kids moved in to OUR apartment and took OUR rooms and OURrrrr kiwis and mehhhhhhhhhhh. okay that's lame of me. butttttt why cant i just be in two places at once? or why cant new zealand be closer to new england bah. and why can't i ever be content where i am? i always want to be somewhere else. as trevor once said to me, i need to figure myself out and learn to appreciate whatever im doing or wherever i may be. i know it's no profound statement or anything, but it's so true. im always looking for more. i never feel fully satisfied, and im definitely not at the moment. although rose did just call me "mcrabbits" which may have made my week.