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well... my life has had some horrible things happen to it lately... everything that i want is coming to me very slowly... but atleast its coming... i finally have an understanding that my parents are poor, and were just going to have to try harder to get things that we want... i always just expected people to help us, cause thats what i would do, but there are a lot of people out there who WILL NOT return the favor... ive spent soo much money on rediculous things... im so glad that im not blinded any more by a relationship, so i can finally see the world for what it is... i dont need someone to make me happy... i thought i did... but i was wrong... i need to find what really makes me happy and leave all the bullshit to the side... i need to live for myself and not someone else... i need to find my purpose... i have an extremely hard time trusting people because ive been screwed over soo many times... even by my family... i just expect it now... it is lonely being single, but id rather be here and lonely, then back there with you, a liar, cheating, dick head, possessive, controlling, freak who loved making me, "the only one you love", feel like shit all the time because it made you feel better. i tryed to help you and dig you out of the hole you were in, but you can climb right back in there, and ill be the one to fill it up with dirt. i really did love you with all my heart and i would and did do everything and anything you asked me to do... but you took advantage of it... ive come to the conclusion that it was all just about sex, and when i didnt give it to you, you went off and found it some where else... i hope she screws you over like you did to me... maybe shell get drunk and make out with your best friend. oh, and i love how you were hiding her from me as if i wouldnt find out... im not stupid.
GUYS: i dont understand how you can end a relationship with a chic, who you "loved so deeply", and just abandon them as if the relationship never took place... if thats what you think love is then maybe we were never really in love... ill just take the memories and forget the boy.
