a letter to the girl next door
every time we see each other it's like some lost ancient secret has been unearthed
everytime we were together, everytime we hugged, everytime we kissed; you magic penetrated me to the core
bruising, mending, tearing, feeding, breaking me
secretly i loved you with an intensity not known to most
but around others...we were just "friends"
i never will understand why she could never take hold the way i did
whether near or far, my heart was always right beside yours,
your's was somewhere else...
probably with him. or him. or him.
it was always someone other than me, but at least you smiled
to this day; your face will bring feelings of joy and regret and i'll completely know the schematics of how our symbiosis worked
but i can never forgive you for making me the runner up again and again...
time after time, your eyes locked with mine, telling me everything i've wanted to hear all along, and seconds later i watched as one by one they fell into their spell. like a snake and it's prey
i was never fooled so easy, i knew they were beckoning to me even behind the veil their true meaning shined bright to me every time.
and yet you still chose him
and that's what binds me in these shadows
anyways,
thanks for making me feel loved loving me
really, cause even second hand love has it's place in the world
and apparently it's reserved for guys like me.
i wish i could be like him sometimes
the great pretender
the beast of a man
that makes his intentions concrete and takes what he wants
but i cant
because thats not me
im that guy that kept you buoyant during hard times, the one that would call just because,... the one that ends up always saying that hes happy that you found someone.
until now.
the blood from my heart will soak my sleeves no longer.
it's time for a change
everytime we were together, everytime we hugged, everytime we kissed; you magic penetrated me to the core
bruising, mending, tearing, feeding, breaking me
secretly i loved you with an intensity not known to most
but around others...we were just "friends"
i never will understand why she could never take hold the way i did
whether near or far, my heart was always right beside yours,
your's was somewhere else...
probably with him. or him. or him.
it was always someone other than me, but at least you smiled
to this day; your face will bring feelings of joy and regret and i'll completely know the schematics of how our symbiosis worked
but i can never forgive you for making me the runner up again and again...
time after time, your eyes locked with mine, telling me everything i've wanted to hear all along, and seconds later i watched as one by one they fell into their spell. like a snake and it's prey
i was never fooled so easy, i knew they were beckoning to me even behind the veil their true meaning shined bright to me every time.
and yet you still chose him
and that's what binds me in these shadows
anyways,
thanks for making me feel loved loving me
really, cause even second hand love has it's place in the world
and apparently it's reserved for guys like me.
i wish i could be like him sometimes
the great pretender
the beast of a man
that makes his intentions concrete and takes what he wants
but i cant
because thats not me
im that guy that kept you buoyant during hard times, the one that would call just because,... the one that ends up always saying that hes happy that you found someone.
until now.
the blood from my heart will soak my sleeves no longer.
it's time for a change