The Insider
hello again..
here I am writing another entry for my "boring and dull" LJ..sorry for those who reading my Journal ^^
well mm so far..im doing fine and im no longer feeling so lonely..which is good.Keyword "holiday" aka long vacation..is really doing nothing for me.Is it dat I have no courage or capable of doing something new for myself..as if doing something I havent do all my life.I do dream n wish I could be brave though.I stil have a dream or more like a wish dat I rily could get rid of.I wish dat I have not stumble upon the problem ever.Its messing up my life,in fact the worst of all.I know n Im realy sure if I could make the problem banished off my life i would be the happiest person who live in this world ever *winks* but its stil the one desire I couldnt achieve to.
I've been around,seeing n knowing people who r in Love and then get married.Sometimes Im really super jealous of them but of course in a good way.I wanted to have those too but the weirdest part is I would like to feel an arranged married too.I dont know how to explain it but somehow I think it would be sweet n fun,if only I got d right n good person of course ^^ mm I think I've got affected with the stories dat I've ever read o watched all my life aha.What a weird person I am,dont you think?
Im stil waiting for my final result.I really hope I could make it this year.I would love to go back home,to where I belong.I know I would be facing d "reality" once Im home but stil I need to face it.I hope I would be strong when d time goes around.
Just keep typing what I've felt all this while..feel free to read n dont blame me if its lame.I mean it *winks*
here I am writing another entry for my "boring and dull" LJ..sorry for those who reading my Journal ^^
well mm so far..im doing fine and im no longer feeling so lonely..which is good.Keyword "holiday" aka long vacation..is really doing nothing for me.Is it dat I have no courage or capable of doing something new for myself..as if doing something I havent do all my life.I do dream n wish I could be brave though.I stil have a dream or more like a wish dat I rily could get rid of.I wish dat I have not stumble upon the problem ever.Its messing up my life,in fact the worst of all.I know n Im realy sure if I could make the problem banished off my life i would be the happiest person who live in this world ever *winks* but its stil the one desire I couldnt achieve to.
I've been around,seeing n knowing people who r in Love and then get married.Sometimes Im really super jealous of them but of course in a good way.I wanted to have those too but the weirdest part is I would like to feel an arranged married too.I dont know how to explain it but somehow I think it would be sweet n fun,if only I got d right n good person of course ^^ mm I think I've got affected with the stories dat I've ever read o watched all my life aha.What a weird person I am,dont you think?
Im stil waiting for my final result.I really hope I could make it this year.I would love to go back home,to where I belong.I know I would be facing d "reality" once Im home but stil I need to face it.I hope I would be strong when d time goes around.
Just keep typing what I've felt all this while..feel free to read n dont blame me if its lame.I mean it *winks*