FML
Two posts in one calendar year. Holy shit!
I just felt the need to write something. So much bounces around my head constantly. Sometimes I wish I were dumber so I could focus on the here and now, but I'm glad I'm not.
Mom's health has been on the decline for a while, but around her birthday, her knee(s) and legs have been giving out on her. I've been spending most of my free time trying to help her out, and that's been taking the piss out of me. Most of my thoughts drift back and forth between worry and guilt. I'm pretty much on my own with her. My brother is in Maryland. He calls in to tell me all the things I'm doing wrong every now and again, though. So I have that going for me. He cares, a lot, though - I know he does - but sometimes I'd like to do to him what he did to me.
I think about that sometimes: Ditch her on his front porch, fly half-way across the country, and not talk to either of them for a year or two. I love them both dearly, but I could use a vacation.
I'm losing steam here. It's late/early. I'm finally getting tired just in time to greet the day. Lucky me.
I just felt the need to write something. So much bounces around my head constantly. Sometimes I wish I were dumber so I could focus on the here and now, but I'm glad I'm not.
Mom's health has been on the decline for a while, but around her birthday, her knee(s) and legs have been giving out on her. I've been spending most of my free time trying to help her out, and that's been taking the piss out of me. Most of my thoughts drift back and forth between worry and guilt. I'm pretty much on my own with her. My brother is in Maryland. He calls in to tell me all the things I'm doing wrong every now and again, though. So I have that going for me. He cares, a lot, though - I know he does - but sometimes I'd like to do to him what he did to me.
I think about that sometimes: Ditch her on his front porch, fly half-way across the country, and not talk to either of them for a year or two. I love them both dearly, but I could use a vacation.
I'm losing steam here. It's late/early. I'm finally getting tired just in time to greet the day. Lucky me.