you better not have a ride!
so, i made a mistake when i broke up with peter. i was just really really really mad that night. after i slept on it and had a talk with someone, i realized that's not what i wanted.
we went to crackerbarrel sunday afternoon/evening and i duno..
we seemed to be fine.. other than him having no feeling towards anything. :/
monday we were good. tuesday we were good until the no feeling thing came up. so i took him home.
blah. it's been up and down, mostly down, since then. i don't think i've cried so much since like murad died. :[ and it sucks. this sucks so much. i shouldn't have called him and broke up with him. this is all my fault. whatever. blah. and now i'm suffering from it and he's just going on feeling nothing. not that he doesn't feel bad, he doesn't feel good either. he's just has no emotions towards anything or anyone. at least that's how it's been explained..
i haven't gone to school for 9 days, today being day 9. tomorrow will be 10. and then i'm going to try to go back next monday. whatever. i fucked myself over. who cares? i don't.
my uncle's brother died last monday. :/
my best friend's daddy died yesterday. :[
life just isn't going my way.
i need job.
i need motivation.
anddddd i need peter. :'[
blah.
we went to crackerbarrel sunday afternoon/evening and i duno..
we seemed to be fine.. other than him having no feeling towards anything. :/
monday we were good. tuesday we were good until the no feeling thing came up. so i took him home.
blah. it's been up and down, mostly down, since then. i don't think i've cried so much since like murad died. :[ and it sucks. this sucks so much. i shouldn't have called him and broke up with him. this is all my fault. whatever. blah. and now i'm suffering from it and he's just going on feeling nothing. not that he doesn't feel bad, he doesn't feel good either. he's just has no emotions towards anything or anyone. at least that's how it's been explained..
i haven't gone to school for 9 days, today being day 9. tomorrow will be 10. and then i'm going to try to go back next monday. whatever. i fucked myself over. who cares? i don't.
my uncle's brother died last monday. :/
my best friend's daddy died yesterday. :[
life just isn't going my way.
i need job.
i need motivation.
anddddd i need peter. :'[
blah.