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so far...this summer sucks...there are a few reasons...but no one really wants to hear all that...especially when i'll end up getting into how its all my fault...and how i cant stand what i do/say/how i act sometimes!...but w/e...its not like im not having fun and never going out...maybe it just hasnt really set in thats its summer yet...its something i was waiting for for so long...something i really needed...a break from all the stress that i really needed/still do need...im still finding myself to be stressed and over what, i really dont kno...and in fact it probably just stresses me out even more...this is my summer break...a time where the level of stress should be much less if it still must exist...
then there is my whole paranoia thing...for quite some time i was able to let go of most of it...but now here i am thinking that people are avoiding me...or one person in general...i would give anything to know what was going on in this person's mind...the wondering and having no clue just makes upset and stressed and makes me want to kno even more...but thats not happening...
i finished reading wicked today...it was amazing...i would recommend it to anyone and everyone...then i read the perks of being a wallflower...another book i would def reccommend...but thats it...im all talked out...
*I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or something like that.*