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I have a huge (and I mean HUGE) pile of work to do. Papers to write, papers to read, homework to finish, etc. but I just cannot bring myself to start it. It's like I'm afraid to dive in because if I do...I might not be able to get out and I need to either finish it or drown in it. It's a little scary that from this side of things I don't know which will happen. Finals are coming up in a few weeks, and then there will be a mind-numbingly nervous couple of weeks waiting for my grades that will determine where I will be living and attending next year. Scary. Yikes. Etc.
Today a friend of mine was talking about losing your laugh, and it kind of made me sad. Like when a child loses their laugh. I dunno. I'm babbling.
I really miss people! I need to talk to my friends more because right now I don't talk to them nearly enough. It's downright depressing. I sit, I work, I procrastinate, but have no real contact with the outside world. At least that's what I feel like sometimes. A lot of times actually. It's scary.
On a brighter note I'm going on a cruise to Alaska in August for a week! I'm really excited about this. :)
Oh also. I PICKED MY LAB. YES. I DID IT. Well sort of. Unofficially. I told Ann Valentine (the PI) that I wanted to join. And she said I probably could. This is really exciting and makes me feel a little more anchored. Not fully anchored, but like I used to be yanked around by the current and now I found a way to sort of maneuver it and have hopes of being able to swim against it and make it to shore at some point.
Man what is with my weird analogies today?
Anyways I am really really really excited. I told the people in the lab and they were excited about it. Which made me even more excited. I'm worried though because none of them know how old I am yet. Well the undergrad who is leaving for med school next year does but the ones who I will be working with don't. I dont know how it will be when they find out. I hope they don't think I'm some sort of freak or are mad at me for not telling them. Anyways.
TIME TO DIVE IN.
Today a friend of mine was talking about losing your laugh, and it kind of made me sad. Like when a child loses their laugh. I dunno. I'm babbling.
I really miss people! I need to talk to my friends more because right now I don't talk to them nearly enough. It's downright depressing. I sit, I work, I procrastinate, but have no real contact with the outside world. At least that's what I feel like sometimes. A lot of times actually. It's scary.
On a brighter note I'm going on a cruise to Alaska in August for a week! I'm really excited about this. :)
Oh also. I PICKED MY LAB. YES. I DID IT. Well sort of. Unofficially. I told Ann Valentine (the PI) that I wanted to join. And she said I probably could. This is really exciting and makes me feel a little more anchored. Not fully anchored, but like I used to be yanked around by the current and now I found a way to sort of maneuver it and have hopes of being able to swim against it and make it to shore at some point.
Man what is with my weird analogies today?
Anyways I am really really really excited. I told the people in the lab and they were excited about it. Which made me even more excited. I'm worried though because none of them know how old I am yet. Well the undergrad who is leaving for med school next year does but the ones who I will be working with don't. I dont know how it will be when they find out. I hope they don't think I'm some sort of freak or are mad at me for not telling them. Anyways.
TIME TO DIVE IN.