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it still doesnt make sense to me...
i see the memorial card and think... no fucking way this can be true.
i have to catch myself because i know that, in fact, it is true.
its so much easier when someone is sick, or old and dies.... they are through with the suffering...if anything, at least now they are not in pain, and family and friends can find comfort in that.
when a healthy 19 year old amazing kid dies... its hard to find comfort.... yes he touched many lives, and had many friends.... but he could have done so much more.... he was happy, healthy, young, intelligent.. he was not supposed to die.
not one single day goes by without me thinking of him.
i even thought about him every day when he was alive...my car faces his old house.. where some of my first memories take place.
the fact that i havent forgotten him yet has actually even helped me.... helped me want to be a person that is never forgotten. I dont want to be average. I want to do amazing things, be an amazing friend, and person in general.
i want people to remember me.
how could this be about Wylie?
it does not make sense.
i see the memorial card and think... no fucking way this can be true.
i have to catch myself because i know that, in fact, it is true.
its so much easier when someone is sick, or old and dies.... they are through with the suffering...if anything, at least now they are not in pain, and family and friends can find comfort in that.
when a healthy 19 year old amazing kid dies... its hard to find comfort.... yes he touched many lives, and had many friends.... but he could have done so much more.... he was happy, healthy, young, intelligent.. he was not supposed to die.
not one single day goes by without me thinking of him.
i even thought about him every day when he was alive...my car faces his old house.. where some of my first memories take place.
the fact that i havent forgotten him yet has actually even helped me.... helped me want to be a person that is never forgotten. I dont want to be average. I want to do amazing things, be an amazing friend, and person in general.
i want people to remember me.
how could this be about Wylie?
it does not make sense.