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[bullsit]

ACTION; DOWNTOWN

[It isn't until he's walking back from school that the realization hits him. While before he could feel the hard thump of his vascular organ increasing with every step, about to pound right out of his chest - he couldn't feel it anymore. It was completely gone, replaced by a deafening silence and a ringing in his aurical sponge

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[a_gentle_boy]

[We trusted you, Lucas.

Hallucinations.
Hallucinations that tore at the weaknesses in your heart.
That was all this was. Hallucinations.

Just... hallucinations.

We believed in you. We waited for you to save us. Look. Look what happened. Look what was reflected in your heart.

He ignores the... nothingness around him as he continues to walk forward.

Hey, Lucas...

He ignores the face of his brother.

Haha... I don't even want to switch with you anymore. You know what? You're worse than dead. I'm better off where I am than to keep living, knowing how badly I failed.

He ignores the taunts and the jeers as he looks for a place he can find respite. But even as he desperately tries to ignore his own delusions, he finds something he can't ignore. He sees it, too. The blood pouring out of his friend's chest. The mouth, wide open in horror. And to this, at least, he has something to say.]

Tavros... I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I promised I would help you, but I can't. I never could. I just... I just didn't want you to end up like me.

I can't save you if I can't even save myself, can I...? Tavros...

[bullsit]

[He looks at Lucas for only a second - eyes gone completely milky white - before he turns around and goes back to trying to push everything back into his chest.]

I am the one, who should be sorry, it's my fault. I didn't mean to, oh, die.

[a_gentle_boy]

[...Well, that was an astonishingly Tavros-like thing to say. Lucas pauses before taking a step forward, his hands shaking a bit.]

...You're not dead yet. Not really.

When everything's back to normal, I... I promise I'll do everything I can. Even if it won't be enough. OK?

[bullsit]

[He steps backwards - though it's shaky. He can already feel the numbness spreading down from his spine.]

Oh, why are you here, as well, did she kill you too?

[a_gentle_boy]

What?

[This was not how a hallucination usually went. He was supposed to be telling Lucas how much he'd failed, but... With a shake of his head, Lucas stares in confusion.]

Who's 'she'? ...Vriska? Are you talking about Vriska?

[bullsit]

I'm sorry, that I'm so useless, that I let her kill you, too.

[a_gentle_boy]

No. Don't say that. I'm fine. I'm fine. ...She didn't really kill you, did she?

[And another step forward. At this point, he is so confused that he hardly even knows what he's saying.]

[bullsit]

I am, oh, obviously not fine, and also, dead.

[Indicates the enormous hole in his chest durr lucas]

[a_gentle_boy]

[And he will slowly reach out a hand towards the hole.]

That's..

You... You're really Tavros, aren't you? The real Tavros?

[The hand stops, hovering in the air for a few moments. Lucas closes his eyes and shakes his head.]

Tavros! Tavros, if it's you... Did you eat any mushrooms?

[bullsit]

[He doesn't really have anything to say, just nodding. Damn cultural insensitivity, that'll learn you dumb trolls to just put anything into your mouths you damn well please.]

[a_gentle_boy]

[And Lucas will shake his head again, as if he can somehow shake off the haziness of his mind. ...But no matter how hard he tries, all he can see is Tavros, mortally injured.

So he closes his eyes.]

Tavros...

What do you see right now? ...What do I look like to you?