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I just wrote that rly sypcho entry. So scratch that lol and heres my real one.
I LOVE THIS KIND OF WEATHER!
Ugh.. snuggling with my kittens in my sweatshirt on the deck. I wish i was by the ocean right now in my baggy jeans and hoodie watching surfers and walkeers eating my plain bagel with cinnamon and sugar. My best freind right at my side. Or even better.. sumone who loves me holding me and keeping me warm. Oh last person to do that was.. um nvm wrong path iw ant to go right now LoL Ugh hear the waves crash and if its high tide felel the mist on your cheeks. Low tide.. sitting ont he wet rocks and after im done my ice coffee i run into the rip tides and splash myself so later i can complain about my wet and sandy jeans. Always being barefoot. Wlaking on the wall barefoot. Walking accross the street onto my dry grass.. barefoot. Rinsing my toes in the outside shower and wlaking up my deck onto the rug in my front door. then going upstairs into my yellow room with fish on the curtains :-) shower curtains that is.. so original of me huh? Laying down on my bunk bed with my extra soft felty pillow that a very old and dear friend of mine.. well actually i stole it from him. I leave my window open.. cuz even though its freezing outside i love the smell of the ocean air and the crisp feeling it puts on my heart. I'll lay there and look out my window.. then climb through it on my roof. I look out at all my neighbors bundled up and then to my left i see the ocean. Still there, still amazingly peacefull. Seagulls and crows sit on my neighbors roof and you can see their feathers blowing on their fat little bodies fromt eh ocean air.
I feel at peace. This is me. this is who i am. Right there on that roof. The side that hardly anyone gets to see. I wont sit on that roof with just anyone. I wont show you how much this means to me unless you deserve it.
Did you really deserve it? Perhaps.. at the time.. I dont wish I could take it back. Wats done is done and I am proud of our moments.
Im a redneck you say. But Im also sumthing much deeper than boots.. beer and a good time. I wish you all knew thata bout me and took the time to see it. Im young.. but im not ignorant.
I wish I could find sumone like Joe was to me. Sumone in depth and real. I miss showing this side of me.
Im gunna start writing again. And drawing. Ugh.. maybe go as far as start making my own clothes again.
Im getting dredz. Damnit it feels good to be different. It feels good to be me again. Thats it.. no more redneck. Im too stuck fitting in. Its time to be me again...
I LOVE THIS KIND OF WEATHER!
Ugh.. snuggling with my kittens in my sweatshirt on the deck. I wish i was by the ocean right now in my baggy jeans and hoodie watching surfers and walkeers eating my plain bagel with cinnamon and sugar. My best freind right at my side. Or even better.. sumone who loves me holding me and keeping me warm. Oh last person to do that was.. um nvm wrong path iw ant to go right now LoL Ugh hear the waves crash and if its high tide felel the mist on your cheeks. Low tide.. sitting ont he wet rocks and after im done my ice coffee i run into the rip tides and splash myself so later i can complain about my wet and sandy jeans. Always being barefoot. Wlaking on the wall barefoot. Walking accross the street onto my dry grass.. barefoot. Rinsing my toes in the outside shower and wlaking up my deck onto the rug in my front door. then going upstairs into my yellow room with fish on the curtains :-) shower curtains that is.. so original of me huh? Laying down on my bunk bed with my extra soft felty pillow that a very old and dear friend of mine.. well actually i stole it from him. I leave my window open.. cuz even though its freezing outside i love the smell of the ocean air and the crisp feeling it puts on my heart. I'll lay there and look out my window.. then climb through it on my roof. I look out at all my neighbors bundled up and then to my left i see the ocean. Still there, still amazingly peacefull. Seagulls and crows sit on my neighbors roof and you can see their feathers blowing on their fat little bodies fromt eh ocean air.
I feel at peace. This is me. this is who i am. Right there on that roof. The side that hardly anyone gets to see. I wont sit on that roof with just anyone. I wont show you how much this means to me unless you deserve it.
Did you really deserve it? Perhaps.. at the time.. I dont wish I could take it back. Wats done is done and I am proud of our moments.
Im a redneck you say. But Im also sumthing much deeper than boots.. beer and a good time. I wish you all knew thata bout me and took the time to see it. Im young.. but im not ignorant.
I wish I could find sumone like Joe was to me. Sumone in depth and real. I miss showing this side of me.
Im gunna start writing again. And drawing. Ugh.. maybe go as far as start making my own clothes again.
Im getting dredz. Damnit it feels good to be different. It feels good to be me again. Thats it.. no more redneck. Im too stuck fitting in. Its time to be me again...