trembling hearts

[bulletsnpistols]

hello world. you know BOYS are so fickle minded, like a pickle. i hate boys. can i find a girlfriend to love please? i think everyone knows whats happening and probably is curious abt the outcome of d and i. okay so 3 days ago he thickedskinned(ly) came to my place to wait for me to go to work! apparently he waited quite long and all so he managed to catch me thou i said i didnt want to see him. he accompanied me to braddle silently finally (like drama, i know) he coaxed me to eat the breakfast he bought and all. he send me all the way to work, ahrrrr-mazzzz-inggg. whatever it is he WAS quite sweet considering the last 3days in a row hes been sending me all and claims hes enjoying it hhahah! good for you! well, we're not tgh tgh yet once again. just on very good terms we're getting there. but first you know in shit like this i hate to put my heart into the wrong hands. afterall ive been enjoying my 'singlehood' i ought to have more fun first. dont worry guys darius is not angry abt anything i say here cause he understands and hes giving me the time i need. plus he chose to put it in the nicest way of 'only when im ready and ready to trust him again then i can make my decision to be with him' awwwwww okay not smitten.
been talking to a few of my friends all. and one of them is spencer, i know youre reading this! (stalker!) hahahaha thanks for everything rlly. plus we're not gonna end our friendship no matter what happens (justsoyouknow)

i cant say i stopped loving d. but i can say i love myself more.  WHY.IS.LOVE.SO.HARD.TO.COMPREHEND.

I LEAVE MY HEART IN MY OWN VULNERABLE HANDS