wow
So I decided to write in this thing because I havent in ages- its funny how God works in people's lives. Its funny how God uses "failures" to teach us his best. I look back at my life at things that I dove into and now realize all those things had a unique purpose. For a long time I had this idea of what a relationship should look like and what love should feel like. For a time, I gave up on many of those things because I just figured it wasnt realistic...but now I know that God never intended for me to give up on anything...giving up is a sign that some things werent meant to be...and for good reason- and I can live with that- Its just crazy because when I was not looking at all...this girl just walks into my life and just blows every expectation I had out of the water...and the crazy thing Is if I didnt go through some of the things that I did in my past- I might still have a settled version of the desires of my heart- there was a time in the past when I threw around the phrase "God I think is giving me the desires of my heart"- but now I can see the truth- the desires of your heart is never a compromise for anything- never settling for anything less that all my hopes and dreams- that God had such a much bigger plan with someone who truly was my match and created just for me- and I dont know what to do with myself- its so joyful- so incredible that sometimes I think it cant be that easy- but it is- and I love it- and I love her so much- and I dont have to rationalize or account for it- its just this unstoppable force that consumes the two of us- and I know that I will always be with her because I couldnt imagine a life without her by my side every day- to not have that would just be a sorry substitute for what an amazing blessing God wants to pour out on me- the crazy thing is that me and both of our whole families see it- they agree- the popular phrase is, "I think she is the one"...its insanse but such a blessing- I have never felt the things I feel with her- thats just the truth- I dont even know what to do with myself sometimes- the only thing that I think that I can do- is let go of anything that would weigh me down and continue to plunge into God's best and ultimately perfect plan for my life- because I see it- and I am so excited- just needed to write that and get it out- I love life- its amazing- i love people- love each other
josh
josh