If it's not forever, if it's just tonight.

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Who: Dean and Castiel, closed.
What: A great way to wake up on your birthday.
Where: Dean's cabin.
Warnings: Sexual themes. (A blowjob.)

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Dean's mind was so far away from the fact that he was getting one year older. There was probably a lot of things they could focus their energies on than celebrating 'fearless leader' turning thirty-four. But it seemed something that was important enough by Cas's standards. He was...really, just happy to fall asleep next to him rather than having to deal with the charade of a party and intended to avoid people at all costs. A lot of the survivors didn't get that Dean had more important things on his mind. Above all -- Cas didn't seem to get it either but he was forgiven for the most part.

A low groan rattled through him as his body reacted quicker than his mind to what Castiel was doing before he dropped his hand to the top of the former angel's head, balling up his fist in his hair. "Fuck," he sighed a little. For a moment, he forgot there was even a "special occasion".

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"As you wish," he chided. Cas took most of his tip into his mouth and gave it a little suck. He wasn't the best at blow jobs. He didn't have any experience in them outside of Dean, but because of that- he knew exactly what Dean liked. He played to his strengths.

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Sure, Dean could say he'd had better blow jobs in the back of the Impala by some co-ed with a daddy complex. It didn't mean he didn't enjoy whatever Cas did to him. Hell, in Dean's world since Castiel invaded he was pretty sure Cas did a lot of things better than people with minimal effort. But that was just an extremely biased opinion on his end. The fearless leader bit back a groan as his entire body hummed in reaction to the single movement. "You're getting a lil better at this." He joked, smirking a little.

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Cas returned with a broad grin, and took all of him into his mouth. He pulled back with an audible smack and fondled Dean's goods a little while raking a hand down the sinewy expanse of Dean's chest. He leaned back down to take it a little further. He wanted Dean to be rock solid in his mouth.

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And he was successful in that, Dean was so hard it hurt. He was right for the most part. Castiel was getting better at this, but the words escaped him for the time being. Whenever he opened his mouth just more noise left him rather than actual words.

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The hour drifted slowly like sand through an hour glass and when it was through the sun had already fixed itself in the sky and Cas lie splayed out across Dean in the most vulnerable of ways. They were sticky with sweat, both needed to visit the showers, but despite the itch the former angel could only push himself closer for some much needed comfort.

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Dean hardly wanted to put any effort into moving for the most part. The hunter sighing as he wrapped his arms around Cas as he tried more to keep close to the former angel for something. Something. He just didn't know what. Dean laid there for a moment before stretching out a little and starting to scoot out from underneath him, reaching over to the nightstand for a pack of cigarettes. But he didn't seem like he was ready to kick Castiel out like he usually was before he moved back to lay down with him again. "Too fuckin' cold," he murmured as the reason before lighting up and running his fingers along his back. "You need anything?"

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Castiel couldn't hide his smile. His clothes were at the opposite side of the room or he would've offered to light the cigarette for him. Instead Cas moved off to give him a little space, sides till close, and eyed him gently. "No, I can take care of myself but your flattery knows no bounds."

Cas paused let his damp hair rest back against the sponge pillows. "Dean?"

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They were..."cuddling" in layman's terms. For Dean he could have just kicked him out but for some reason that would have left a rotten taste in his mouth as he smirked a little around the cigarette hanging from his lips. "Yes, Cas?" He looked down at Cas, tilting his head to the side with a curious look on his face.

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Cas let his eyelashes drop a little before he spoke, and when he did it was oddly quiet.

"What are your thoughts as to monogamy?" The downtrodden angel took in a slight breath. "I wish to belong to only you, if I'm honest...." his brows rose a fraction. "I always have been; yours."

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Dean's brows arched up when that word was brought up into this entire thing. 'Monogamy'. It was true, neither of them acted truly 100% faithful to each other in the eyes of many of the camp. But the truth was that Dean always tried to make it back to Castiel's bed before dawn. The hunter moved a little before he was hovering a little over Castiel and being careful not to drop any ashes on him. Dean took a moment before setting his cigarette on the nightstand and pressing his lips against Cas's shoulder, shutting his eyes as he put some thought into it. "I've thought about it...I don't usually believe in it though." Especially in the time they were living right then.

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Cas threaded his fingers softly through Dean's hair at the kiss, and sighed long through his nose.

"I know that my time here is limited now.... and I'm not sure where I'll go if I die, I just want to know I meant something and that I was a part of and got to experience the best part of humanity." A beat. "And you."

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"Way to go about not depressing me, Cas." He chuckled softly as he lifted his head a little. For a moment, he didn't say a word before he leaned in again and pressed his lips to Castiel's forehead. "Wanna move in with me?"

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Cas just kissed him back tenderly, ran his fingers down the line of his cheek. "I'd like that."