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i think i'm just too old for this shit.
i'll be 20 in a week and the more i think about all of this shit, i think i've been living in a dream world. When you look at your parents...how many friends do they all have? oh, about 5. Why do i need 30?
it was nice having a family of friends and knowing that i would always have people there for me, but i was very very wrong. Weather or not they were bad decisions, they were my decisions and i guess i have to stick by them.
what makes any of you think that if you make one decision that everyone disagrees with, that they won't turn their back on you too?
be careful.
i have friends, i have a few good ones that remained there for me through this, and i also have new friends. I also have friends from work that beg me to come around more often. not to mention, all of those people are so resposible and grown up, most of them are making close to 6 figures already and are the nicest people ever.
i was silly to think that i needed a huge group of friends.
i don't
i don't need you, i don't need this scene.
it was my life for so long but i'll survive. i'll make it, i know i will.
kym is the only friend that remains true to me. i will be there to back her up through anything and everything. you should all learn from her on what a true friend is and how to treat people. i'm sorry i ever doubted you, kym.
also, i've been edge for 8 months and it's been all for the wrong reasons...i don't really know if it's something i truely believe in anymore...again, i've been doubting a lot of things in my life recently so who knows.
to those of you who still care about me...although i doubt there's many...if any: you know my phone number, i'll be around. i don't need shows to love hardcore, and i don't need the kids. because that's exactly what they are...kids.
it would be best if you have a problem with me then just leave me the fuck alone. try and act like an adult and don't bother with me. i'll do the same.
just remember, they did it to alli, they did it to me...they'll do it to you.
someday, you'll get yours.
and i'll be there to watch it all.
i've had this same journal for a year...it's time for a new one.
this lj is over, and so is a huge part of my life.
here's to new beginnings...
new lj: _arsenic_kiss
i'll be 20 in a week and the more i think about all of this shit, i think i've been living in a dream world. When you look at your parents...how many friends do they all have? oh, about 5. Why do i need 30?
it was nice having a family of friends and knowing that i would always have people there for me, but i was very very wrong. Weather or not they were bad decisions, they were my decisions and i guess i have to stick by them.
what makes any of you think that if you make one decision that everyone disagrees with, that they won't turn their back on you too?
be careful.
i have friends, i have a few good ones that remained there for me through this, and i also have new friends. I also have friends from work that beg me to come around more often. not to mention, all of those people are so resposible and grown up, most of them are making close to 6 figures already and are the nicest people ever.
i was silly to think that i needed a huge group of friends.
i don't
i don't need you, i don't need this scene.
it was my life for so long but i'll survive. i'll make it, i know i will.
kym is the only friend that remains true to me. i will be there to back her up through anything and everything. you should all learn from her on what a true friend is and how to treat people. i'm sorry i ever doubted you, kym.
also, i've been edge for 8 months and it's been all for the wrong reasons...i don't really know if it's something i truely believe in anymore...again, i've been doubting a lot of things in my life recently so who knows.
to those of you who still care about me...although i doubt there's many...if any: you know my phone number, i'll be around. i don't need shows to love hardcore, and i don't need the kids. because that's exactly what they are...kids.
it would be best if you have a problem with me then just leave me the fuck alone. try and act like an adult and don't bother with me. i'll do the same.
just remember, they did it to alli, they did it to me...they'll do it to you.
someday, you'll get yours.
and i'll be there to watch it all.
i've had this same journal for a year...it's time for a new one.
this lj is over, and so is a huge part of my life.
here's to new beginnings...
new lj: _arsenic_kiss