all messed up in the head
so im backed to jumbled...not that bad though hopefully by the end of the week everything will be straight again...ive been straight for so long now, that its feeling even worse that everything is all over the place, i ignored it for 2 weeks maybe even 3 but now that i relised i have to keep my shit together, at leats for 2 more months, im gonna do it and have to stick to it, i came this far right?....
Any way, Caitlin came out and saw me yesterday, we didn't do much, but it was really nice just to be around her, ive missed that girl so much...We hung out at my house for a little, met kelly and Lonnie at J's Pizza place, then went to tbell watched Real World Road Rules...and the sat around for a little and she went back to brooklyn...it was okies...i wish we could have done more, but i had to wake up at 7 AM like i do everyday of my life...grrr.
But on Friday Keith and i are gonna go to the movies all day, cause thats just what were gonna do, were gonna see The diary of Bridget Jones, well the second one, and Finding Neverland.. im pretty siked on that..i need a good day with keith just to bitch about nothing, and not care what i look like..it will be good and im actually excited for it to come...thank god i have off thursday and fri, i think i would have had to kill my self if i didn't have them off..
And i finally burned myslef a CD with this honorary title song on it, thats the most amazing song ever, and then i just put a bunch of randoms on it, not even planning out the CD, ended up being one of the most depressing/amazing CDS ever...its one of those CDs when your so sad you turn off all the lights in your room and you climb in to bed, and you cry your eyes out till you fall alseep, yeah one of those, beautiful..im gonna need one of those nights soon.
My anxiety has been getting so bad it scares me, i haven't been on my BC and thats definetly why, it just makes me hurt... i hate it...i hate being timid around certain people in uncomfertable situations, and not opening my mouth when i want to, it sucks.. i have this hoirrible sinking feeling in my chest and its the worst. grrrr i need medication before i have no more insurance.
bleh bleh bleh
have a wonderful day everyone <3
Any way, Caitlin came out and saw me yesterday, we didn't do much, but it was really nice just to be around her, ive missed that girl so much...We hung out at my house for a little, met kelly and Lonnie at J's Pizza place, then went to tbell watched Real World Road Rules...and the sat around for a little and she went back to brooklyn...it was okies...i wish we could have done more, but i had to wake up at 7 AM like i do everyday of my life...grrr.
But on Friday Keith and i are gonna go to the movies all day, cause thats just what were gonna do, were gonna see The diary of Bridget Jones, well the second one, and Finding Neverland.. im pretty siked on that..i need a good day with keith just to bitch about nothing, and not care what i look like..it will be good and im actually excited for it to come...thank god i have off thursday and fri, i think i would have had to kill my self if i didn't have them off..
And i finally burned myslef a CD with this honorary title song on it, thats the most amazing song ever, and then i just put a bunch of randoms on it, not even planning out the CD, ended up being one of the most depressing/amazing CDS ever...its one of those CDs when your so sad you turn off all the lights in your room and you climb in to bed, and you cry your eyes out till you fall alseep, yeah one of those, beautiful..im gonna need one of those nights soon.
My anxiety has been getting so bad it scares me, i haven't been on my BC and thats definetly why, it just makes me hurt... i hate it...i hate being timid around certain people in uncomfertable situations, and not opening my mouth when i want to, it sucks.. i have this hoirrible sinking feeling in my chest and its the worst. grrrr i need medication before i have no more insurance.
bleh bleh bleh
have a wonderful day everyone <3