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so today one of my friends that i used to hang out with back in like 8th was asking me about one of my exboyfriends. we started talking about all the times we all hung out. & it just got me thinking about my ex. i really miss him alot. its pretty obvious who it is. we went out for 5months. & ive been through this so many times. but like he was one of the only relationships i consider serious. but nothings really that serious in 8th grade. but whatever. i miss him alot. i love him. i got really upset thinking about all the fun times we had & shit. i wanted to cry right there in class just talking about it.
its crazy how much things change. freshman year i went back out with this kid. only for 2 or 3 weeks but since this year weve talked. now we dont talk. we act like we dont know each other in school. and i guess i dont know him. but i want to remember him the way i knew him, not how he is now. i just really miss him alot. i just really miss having a boyfriend. and having someone care. and someone to always think about. i hate being alone. and im so sick of it.
but for a postive thing, since the firedrill fucked up everything, i caught josh just before he pulled out, & jumped in his truck & got home at 1:55 when i usually get home at like 2:20 or later.
its crazy how much things change. freshman year i went back out with this kid. only for 2 or 3 weeks but since this year weve talked. now we dont talk. we act like we dont know each other in school. and i guess i dont know him. but i want to remember him the way i knew him, not how he is now. i just really miss him alot. i just really miss having a boyfriend. and having someone care. and someone to always think about. i hate being alone. and im so sick of it.
but for a postive thing, since the firedrill fucked up everything, i caught josh just before he pulled out, & jumped in his truck & got home at 1:55 when i usually get home at like 2:20 or later.