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heres the thing about growing up. your friendships change. people grow apart, others grow closer..
i've been thinking about an old friend. She and i were inseprable. things happened, and only now are we talking again. for me i kinda flitted around, different people filling her place, but only ever people who didn't last. and now there isn't anyone in that place. whereas there was someone waiting to take my place the instant things fell apart.
It's really been bothering me over the last few days, the fact that i don't have someone who i can just hang out with. I know Adam is always there for me, but that's different. I miss having a girlfriend. someone who i can be brutally honest with and talk about things, where i know they will always take my side and not tell me when i am being irrational.
I miss having someone to hang out with. someone who i can call up and not have to have some awesome idea of what to do, where we can just sit around and do nothing and have the best time doing it.
everybody is changing and i just don't fit into anyone's lives anymore. everyone has their groups of friends who they share intrests and activities with and i feel like i'm just sitting here on the outside wishing that i was that interesting that they would want to spend time with me too.
But everbody probably feels the same way about me too... that i've grown distant or that i've changed and they no longer feel comfortable around me.
what's it going to be like when Adam and I get married and move away and we'll be that much farther from everyone we know?
i've been thinking about an old friend. She and i were inseprable. things happened, and only now are we talking again. for me i kinda flitted around, different people filling her place, but only ever people who didn't last. and now there isn't anyone in that place. whereas there was someone waiting to take my place the instant things fell apart.
It's really been bothering me over the last few days, the fact that i don't have someone who i can just hang out with. I know Adam is always there for me, but that's different. I miss having a girlfriend. someone who i can be brutally honest with and talk about things, where i know they will always take my side and not tell me when i am being irrational.
I miss having someone to hang out with. someone who i can call up and not have to have some awesome idea of what to do, where we can just sit around and do nothing and have the best time doing it.
everybody is changing and i just don't fit into anyone's lives anymore. everyone has their groups of friends who they share intrests and activities with and i feel like i'm just sitting here on the outside wishing that i was that interesting that they would want to spend time with me too.
But everbody probably feels the same way about me too... that i've grown distant or that i've changed and they no longer feel comfortable around me.
what's it going to be like when Adam and I get married and move away and we'll be that much farther from everyone we know?