i'm the new cancer, never looked better
sorry if i haven't talked to people for a while, but my father and I have been fighting more and more lately, and it ended up with him (for the lack of a better word) grounding me for 'the rest of my life'... meaning it'll be over in about 2 weeks~ish. he did take my phone off me for a while... but he needs to play his mind games better, as he hid it in the normal spot... he seems to think i wouldn't go through the junk draw. *rolls eyes*
i have also been a little more hermit~y lately, just occasionally don't feel like talking to people... it happens sometimes, normally when i have crap i have to deal with... but me being me, i procrastonate for as long as humanely possible, then have to have other people push me into dealing with said problems... recently, it's been Pie and Yeti more than most. if i don't talk to you, it isn't because i don't love you, it's because i'm just in an... interesting mind set for the moment. give me time, it'll pass. it always does.
i have decieded to face my fear... sometime next week(possibly) i have decieded to put flowers on my Grandma's grave, and my Grandad Kevin's grave(my mum's biological father... he died at 44 from a massive heart attack, i think it was a few months after my mother got married to my father... she was 18). i'm not sure how i will be afterwards, if i'm hysterical, i apologize in advance if i say anything really nasty or depressive... probably best to NOT mention it for a while... i'll probably go with my mum, as i don't know where either are buried.
AH! half 5! fuck me, i gotta get ready for volleyball!!! ^_^ yay! venting! i'm playing in my ladies 2 team tonight... meaning Mum, Alexis and Chloe and me... i LOVE this team! ^_^ so much fun!
also, tuesday night volleyball... i know why i land like a do... on my knees, then with my back flat to the sand... Pie lands the same way. Puppy seemed to find it amusing... also 'cute' that Pie and i did the whole 'BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!' thing when one of us hit sand xP WHY IS THAT CUTE??! that concept is still lost on me...
i have also been a little more hermit~y lately, just occasionally don't feel like talking to people... it happens sometimes, normally when i have crap i have to deal with... but me being me, i procrastonate for as long as humanely possible, then have to have other people push me into dealing with said problems... recently, it's been Pie and Yeti more than most. if i don't talk to you, it isn't because i don't love you, it's because i'm just in an... interesting mind set for the moment. give me time, it'll pass. it always does.
i have decieded to face my fear... sometime next week(possibly) i have decieded to put flowers on my Grandma's grave, and my Grandad Kevin's grave(my mum's biological father... he died at 44 from a massive heart attack, i think it was a few months after my mother got married to my father... she was 18). i'm not sure how i will be afterwards, if i'm hysterical, i apologize in advance if i say anything really nasty or depressive... probably best to NOT mention it for a while... i'll probably go with my mum, as i don't know where either are buried.
AH! half 5! fuck me, i gotta get ready for volleyball!!! ^_^ yay! venting! i'm playing in my ladies 2 team tonight... meaning Mum, Alexis and Chloe and me... i LOVE this team! ^_^ so much fun!
also, tuesday night volleyball... i know why i land like a do... on my knees, then with my back flat to the sand... Pie lands the same way. Puppy seemed to find it amusing... also 'cute' that Pie and i did the whole 'BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!' thing when one of us hit sand xP WHY IS THAT CUTE??! that concept is still lost on me...