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{The fragile keep secrets, gathered in pockets. (xbleeding_outx) wrote,
@ 2004-08-06 15:47:00
Current mood: mellow
Current music: Spiderman
"last night i was going thru all my notes from devon from the past 3 years. adn i came across this one and she told me, that id always be her best frined. adn idk there was soem shit in tehre that made me cry so fuckign long. and all i can tell you devon is that you know i would take EVERYTHING i said about you back in a fucking heartbeat, i love you, and that no matter what happens ill always care for you. and that i hope we stay friends forever. and that, i miss you."
Amanda wrote that in her lj about me. And I didn't know I could mean that much to someone that I've hurt so many times. =\ She's a f ucking amazing person for being my friend all those times. If it wasn't for her, and her amazing theraputical skills... Idk if I'd be the same person I am now. She and Bethany (and Sarah, when we weren't fighting) were really the only ones out of all my friends that actually helped me when I had a problem or something. And like, I could never repay either of them for anything they've done for me. Yeah, Amanda has done some pretty shitty stuff to me, but it's not like I didn't do shit to her too... After the whole Katie thing... how she told everyone a bunch of shit... Amanda was one of the only people that still talked to me or considered me one of her friends. And if I didn't have her, Bethany, Tom or Sarah Idk what I'd do because I'd have noone. So, thank you guys for being my friends and sticking with me thru everything. I can't thank you enough, or repay you for everything you've done for me. So..
Amanda: You're a wicked awesome person and I love you for everything you've done for me. I know I was a bitch to you in the past but if we can, lets just put all that shit behind us and start over. We're going to Mott and things'll be different now. I hope we still manage to stay friends. Cuz you're an awesome one. You always helped me with everything. Thank you soo much }
That was in devons journal. I Love You Devon.