My fucking life has turned into a soap -.-
My goodnight statement. I AM SO FED UP. SERIOUSLY, I DO NOT WANT MY BULLSHIT BEST FRIEND TO SCREW HIS LIFE UP AGAIN AND THEN WHINE ABOUT IT. I. AM. ANNOYED. BY. IT.
2 days ago, he said he would leave this girl alone, definitly this time (which he said for like, the fifth? time). My other good friend just looked at me and said in Polish (yeah, I know where mean, we usually don't talk Polish when he's around): I give him two weeks till he's chasing after her again.
I said: Less.
Looks like I was right -.- It's not even the fact that I don't like this girl that much or that she is a bitch and plays with any boy who comes near her, it's more that he broke promise after promise, that I cannot trust a word he says 'cause lately, you never know what he's really going to do. He also had this secret crush, girlfriend, whatever. He always talked so devotedly about her, called her angel and whatnot -.- of course, that didn't stop him from flirting with every girl within a 10 meter radius. But now, since he's actually dating that damn other girl, that counts as cheating. And I am so pissed about that that I would just love to kick his face. But in his current condition, he would probably kick back, and I rather like my teeth.
To top it all, this mysterious angel he didn't want me to know turns out to be my former best friend. I say former because I got pissed being used when needed, but dropped when I didn't quite fit in. But that isn't even the point, I simply loathe the fact that he promised her that he would give this other girl up, promised it to my friend, but then once AGAIN ignored his promise and is dating her now!
That ASSHOLE! God, what happened to my friend? :(:(
I know I wasn't always there for him, when I should have, but still, my wrongs don't make his right... I think it's time for me to just crush him, make him face all the shit he has produced these last weeks, months... I thought I did, but apparently not enough. I can't do anything for him; he has to change, how can I do that for him? I can only help him, or in this case, kick his ass onto the path. Apparently, nothing else works.
Oh, and as I said, I'm not exactly that good with my former friend, but that he didn't have the guts to actually tell me it was her depresses me. But then, he said he had to promise not to tell. Oh. Damn. I think I screwed up, I just realised- now, since I hinted some things, she might think he broke his promise. Damn. He didn't, my other friend told me. Too late.
Aaaanyway, I'm off to bed. This whole thing is senseless. And yes, I know this whole affair sounds like a soap -.- It bothers me, too. But it's what I have to deal with. Oh well, at least it's not boring. But depressing, when you think 'yeah, that's actually your life'. *sigh*
I'll see what I'll do. Not that I have a choice.
2 days ago, he said he would leave this girl alone, definitly this time (which he said for like, the fifth? time). My other good friend just looked at me and said in Polish (yeah, I know where mean, we usually don't talk Polish when he's around): I give him two weeks till he's chasing after her again.
I said: Less.
Looks like I was right -.- It's not even the fact that I don't like this girl that much or that she is a bitch and plays with any boy who comes near her, it's more that he broke promise after promise, that I cannot trust a word he says 'cause lately, you never know what he's really going to do. He also had this secret crush, girlfriend, whatever. He always talked so devotedly about her, called her angel and whatnot -.- of course, that didn't stop him from flirting with every girl within a 10 meter radius. But now, since he's actually dating that damn other girl, that counts as cheating. And I am so pissed about that that I would just love to kick his face. But in his current condition, he would probably kick back, and I rather like my teeth.
To top it all, this mysterious angel he didn't want me to know turns out to be my former best friend. I say former because I got pissed being used when needed, but dropped when I didn't quite fit in. But that isn't even the point, I simply loathe the fact that he promised her that he would give this other girl up, promised it to my friend, but then once AGAIN ignored his promise and is dating her now!
That ASSHOLE! God, what happened to my friend? :(:(
I know I wasn't always there for him, when I should have, but still, my wrongs don't make his right... I think it's time for me to just crush him, make him face all the shit he has produced these last weeks, months... I thought I did, but apparently not enough. I can't do anything for him; he has to change, how can I do that for him? I can only help him, or in this case, kick his ass onto the path. Apparently, nothing else works.
Oh, and as I said, I'm not exactly that good with my former friend, but that he didn't have the guts to actually tell me it was her depresses me. But then, he said he had to promise not to tell. Oh. Damn. I think I screwed up, I just realised- now, since I hinted some things, she might think he broke his promise. Damn. He didn't, my other friend told me. Too late.
Aaaanyway, I'm off to bed. This whole thing is senseless. And yes, I know this whole affair sounds like a soap -.- It bothers me, too. But it's what I have to deal with. Oh well, at least it's not boring. But depressing, when you think 'yeah, that's actually your life'. *sigh*
I'll see what I'll do. Not that I have a choice.