Mothers...are complicated beings...

[bujutsu_goth]

....I'll get to my own in a moment...but it seems she is not the only mother who is feeling the need to make life stressful for me...

Keigo-chan's Princey's mother, it appears, has grown rather attached to me.....And while that is an amusing thing for obvious reasons, I'm...getting rather sick of her calling me...Often times in the middle of the

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[sunbunnytouji]

Ummm...sorry about your mom... I'll give you all the luck I can. I'll even ask Sengoku to buy you one of those awesome good luck charms he likes so much. The really really do work. Honest, sempai.

[bujutsu_goth]

Thanks...I don't know if it's luck I really need, so much as acceptance...of who I am and what I choose to do....And maybe just to see her be proud of me...for once...just once...Instead of her constant expectations and disapproval...

[sunbunnytouji]

I...I know the feeling Sempai. And it's sorta..I don't know. I think I look up to you even more, because unlike me, you're still trying. Me, I know I'll never be the "good kid" they wanted and I stopped trying to please them either. But sempai...I know it's not much, but you have acceptance. I accept you, and I'm sure the Higa-tachi accept you and I'm willing to bet Yuushi does and a bunch of other people.

But I suck balls at pep talks and not in the good way...

[bujutsu_goth]

I'm not really trying to please her...If that was my goal, I'd have done a lot of things differently in life...Including never having taken up martial arts...Which in turn would've probably meant never befriending Rin all those years ago...Though I'm sure right now she's really wishing that I'd never stepped foot in a dojo for that reason alone...
...But yeah...I know you guys accept me for who I am...and I appreciate it more than you know...I just wish I could have the same luxury from my own mother...

Heh...It's fine. The fact that you're listening to me bitch and moan about it means more to me than a pep talk....

[sunbunnytouji]

That's true I guess. We can't all be good boys. And...she has your little brother. I'm sure he'll grow out this phase of his You know...the gullible moron phase... I hope.
.... Sempai... I'd say give her time. Bet it's just the shock...

And bitch away Sempai. You've been my shoulder to bitch at, and it's a kohai's duty...no...his honor, to get bitched back at

[bujutsu_goth]

It's not about being a good boy or not...It's about doing what she wants...I could be an awful person, but as long as I followed her rules, she more than likely wouldn't give a damn.....And.....no. No...I don't think Masuyo's ever going to grow out of that. He's been that way since birth and I don't see it changing anytime soon...No doubt Kaa-san has realized this as well, which is why she keeps putting so much pressure on me....Not that I would even want her to treat Masuyo in the same way. If the kid didn't want to do any of the things she told him to do, it would be no different than what I'm dealing with.
I...hope you're right...But when she's taking things out on my little sisters and brother just because she can't get what she wants from me, it makes me wonder if that's really the truth...

Heh. Thanks...I appreciate it...I know I'm not really acting like myself because of all this...

[sunbunnytouji]

I guess. And really, she's been doing that...Guess I'm glad I'm not the oldest, cause I don't have that sort of pressure. Maybe...maybe your mom just needs a vacation....who knows.

I can tell, btu I'm sure you'll eb back to the unruly bastard that I'd proud to call my sempai