The future has no past..
If anyone couldn't tell - I'm not sad to see 2008 go at all. Fuck that year. I'm pretty sure more bad than good happened that year.
That being said I nearly (or, not so nearly) freaked out earlier because its 2009. Which means 134 days and approximately five hours until graduation - according to the Oneonta website. That's so effing scary. You have no idea. That is one of the reasons I think this year isn't going to go so well, but I'll still be at school for four months and change which is a pretty decently sized chunk. I'm looking forward to most of my classes next semester, save for Spanish which I'm extremely unhappy to be taking and do not want deal with it. As for after, I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for grad school (but definitely not expecting anything to come of that right away).
I like the mentality that a new year is somewhat of a blank slate. Mine got fucked up rather quickly, but its easily salvageable, hopefully.
As for new years resolutions? My only actual one is to find something that makes me happy about being home, or at least makes the situation more tolerable.
Things that should be on my list, but aren't:
Actually check my voicemail sometimes - my mailbox has been full for a little while and I just got around to cleaning it today. I had five new voicemails, all from my birthday which was three weeks ago. I had 15 saved voicemails, 10 of which were from my ex whom I haven't been together with since September. A few were ridiculously silly which made me smile so I'm glad those were still around.
Learn how to read people - I'm actually really really bad at this. I don't think that is something that can be taught or really improved upon though. Along with that, learning to be less transparent could be extremely useful.
Fix my sleeping habits - I don't think they will ever be fixed for real.
If there was a way to become better at making friends, I'd say I should try that too. Despite the self deprecating bullshit I spout, I do think I'm kind of interesting to an extent (I've met some awfully lame people recently, and realized that I may not be perfect, but I've got a lot to say for myself if you give me a chance [and if people would actually fucking listen, and not just wait for their turns to speak]). On the other hand, despite my constantly joking about how I'm awesome, I'm still so insecure and could use some of that confidence for real.
That being said I nearly (or, not so nearly) freaked out earlier because its 2009. Which means 134 days and approximately five hours until graduation - according to the Oneonta website. That's so effing scary. You have no idea. That is one of the reasons I think this year isn't going to go so well, but I'll still be at school for four months and change which is a pretty decently sized chunk. I'm looking forward to most of my classes next semester, save for Spanish which I'm extremely unhappy to be taking and do not want deal with it. As for after, I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for grad school (but definitely not expecting anything to come of that right away).
I like the mentality that a new year is somewhat of a blank slate. Mine got fucked up rather quickly, but its easily salvageable, hopefully.
As for new years resolutions? My only actual one is to find something that makes me happy about being home, or at least makes the situation more tolerable.
Things that should be on my list, but aren't:
Actually check my voicemail sometimes - my mailbox has been full for a little while and I just got around to cleaning it today. I had five new voicemails, all from my birthday which was three weeks ago. I had 15 saved voicemails, 10 of which were from my ex whom I haven't been together with since September. A few were ridiculously silly which made me smile so I'm glad those were still around.
Learn how to read people - I'm actually really really bad at this. I don't think that is something that can be taught or really improved upon though. Along with that, learning to be less transparent could be extremely useful.
Fix my sleeping habits - I don't think they will ever be fixed for real.
If there was a way to become better at making friends, I'd say I should try that too. Despite the self deprecating bullshit I spout, I do think I'm kind of interesting to an extent (I've met some awfully lame people recently, and realized that I may not be perfect, but I've got a lot to say for myself if you give me a chance [and if people would actually fucking listen, and not just wait for their turns to speak]). On the other hand, despite my constantly joking about how I'm awesome, I'm still so insecure and could use some of that confidence for real.