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A SAD STATE OF AFFAIRS
I look at the generations ahead of me and everyone’s divorced and bitter and angry.
Or at least to me it feels that way.
And it’s kind of like, I don’t want that to be my life.
I don’t want to feel like I ruined it.
I don’t want to feel like I wasted it.
I don’t want to feel like I’m alone and I haven’t done what I really wanted to do.
I look at jobs that get paid more than I do and you can be, like, valeting cars for 20 bucks an hour or twirling signs from 25 bucks an hour. But people who have a college degree and work their ass off to get to where they want to be constantly struggle just to get by.
I’m kind of confused between wanting money and hating money.
So it’s this back and forth between, ‘Yeah, I want to be rich, I want to be comfortable.’
But then I also feel like you almost have to sell out for that.
There is so much in life to think about and consider.
My relationship with my family is strained, but my bonds with my friends are strong.
I think friends are God’s way of making up for your family.
Overall, I’m satisfied with my interpersonal relationships.
I definitely have a lot of baggage with family.
But I’m hoping that I’ll be able to move on...