Mar 27, 2004 12:08
(reverse it)
b: when did you realize that we are seperate beings?
a: i haven't completely come to terms with our separation. i hate thinking of myself as distinct. it makes me discouraged. makes me bored with myself. it was easier to care about myself when i thought i was you. and it is still easier to care about myself when i feel like my life parallels yours in some way. i sometimes think we are two different sides of the same being.
b: like leonard bernstein says: music is not about notes/music is about intervals. the relationship between notes. being alive is monotonous as an individual person and so people need to find others for color and fill and harmony and dissonance. the fact that we are family means that our notes have some sort of strong relationship to one another. perhaps we are the same note in a different octave and so when we are together, we are stronger and more confident than when alone. jesus this metaphor is getting out of hand. but i can't stop! our family is always a good (or at least interesting) song. i like my own voice more when i hear it in the terms of the ensemble. maybe we aren't two different sides of the same being, but complimentary notes that begin a chorus or relief when we enter a song together.