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Today was a good day.
This morning I woke up early to spend my last day with Paul. I got us coffee and doughnuts, and argued with the bitchy barista. I pulled the "I have partner numbers" card, BAM SUCKA.
I spent the morning painting and cleaning with mama Oran and Paul. Paul bought me a happy meal, and kids, I was happy.
After checking out of his apartment ( :( !!) he brought over some Heine's and we swam and smoked cigarettes, and said our goodbyes. I cried when he left.
Ashley then joined me, while we schmoozed our landlord into renovating our apartments. Being in our bathing suits was definitely use-full.
We then went to dinner with Melissa and Sahib. Dinner was cute and distracting. I saw cute little Grace, I felt like I was being rude because I didn't say anything, but I never know how to "bump into people." I hope she doesn't hate me.
As we were leaving Paul called, I was expecting that phone call where they profess their undying love and you decide to stay and not leave, and stay here and keep me sane, but he just wanted some weed. I drove out there and we smoked weed on some dock with his cute sister Nicole. Then we went to Denny's and drank coffee and played card games.
I've said Goodbye to Paul about 4 times this week, in case we didn't see each other again before he left. I'm getting really good at Goodbyes.
I have a really big Goodbye that I have to do soon. It's making me pretty fucking crazy, it's definitely over-due. I hope I come out of this a perfectly fine young lady that doesn't cry and can learn to love another person, maybe even love myself.
If I have more days like this, then the summer should flow pretty smoothly. Although I don't think getting coffee and McDonald's by myself will cut it. Oh shit man.
This morning I woke up early to spend my last day with Paul. I got us coffee and doughnuts, and argued with the bitchy barista. I pulled the "I have partner numbers" card, BAM SUCKA.
I spent the morning painting and cleaning with mama Oran and Paul. Paul bought me a happy meal, and kids, I was happy.
After checking out of his apartment ( :( !!) he brought over some Heine's and we swam and smoked cigarettes, and said our goodbyes. I cried when he left.
Ashley then joined me, while we schmoozed our landlord into renovating our apartments. Being in our bathing suits was definitely use-full.
We then went to dinner with Melissa and Sahib. Dinner was cute and distracting. I saw cute little Grace, I felt like I was being rude because I didn't say anything, but I never know how to "bump into people." I hope she doesn't hate me.
As we were leaving Paul called, I was expecting that phone call where they profess their undying love and you decide to stay and not leave, and stay here and keep me sane, but he just wanted some weed. I drove out there and we smoked weed on some dock with his cute sister Nicole. Then we went to Denny's and drank coffee and played card games.
I've said Goodbye to Paul about 4 times this week, in case we didn't see each other again before he left. I'm getting really good at Goodbyes.
I have a really big Goodbye that I have to do soon. It's making me pretty fucking crazy, it's definitely over-due. I hope I come out of this a perfectly fine young lady that doesn't cry and can learn to love another person, maybe even love myself.
If I have more days like this, then the summer should flow pretty smoothly. Although I don't think getting coffee and McDonald's by myself will cut it. Oh shit man.