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Fuck.
I was trying to keep my eyelids open in the car last night, so in between singing elliott smith songs (I have no stereo and I can only think his lyrics when trying to distract myself) I decided to try to think of the last time I slept. Slept Slept, probably Thursday night. I have taken a few short naps, but they didn't do shit other than make me more tired. It's weird how much sleep affects the body, kind of fun. I just can't get myself to act like an adult and go to sleep and wake up in time for work. So I stay up all night, change my clothes at 3:30 and leave for work. Work is fine, I'm usually busy and hyped up on caffeine. But once I'm out of work, even though it's 9 am, it feels like fucking 4pm. My entire day is shot. I can't sleep, but I can't do anything either because it feels like day time. And now I can't sleep at night because my schedule is all fucked up. I'm fucking fucked. Fuck.
My diet consists of redbulls in the evening, triple tall americanos w/ 2 raw sugars, and cigarettes.
I would like my sanity back, as well as my appetite, and possibly a new car.
I was trying to keep my eyelids open in the car last night, so in between singing elliott smith songs (I have no stereo and I can only think his lyrics when trying to distract myself) I decided to try to think of the last time I slept. Slept Slept, probably Thursday night. I have taken a few short naps, but they didn't do shit other than make me more tired. It's weird how much sleep affects the body, kind of fun. I just can't get myself to act like an adult and go to sleep and wake up in time for work. So I stay up all night, change my clothes at 3:30 and leave for work. Work is fine, I'm usually busy and hyped up on caffeine. But once I'm out of work, even though it's 9 am, it feels like fucking 4pm. My entire day is shot. I can't sleep, but I can't do anything either because it feels like day time. And now I can't sleep at night because my schedule is all fucked up. I'm fucking fucked. Fuck.
My diet consists of redbulls in the evening, triple tall americanos w/ 2 raw sugars, and cigarettes.
I would like my sanity back, as well as my appetite, and possibly a new car.