life sucks
Frances is gonna take down my house. If my house is gone I wont be living here anymore. My mom and step-dad say that it would be the perfect opportunity to move to North Carolina or Montana. I dont want to move yet though. Maybe next summer (initially planned) but not now. Not so sudden. I just pray to God everything and everyone will be alright when I come back from Georgia. The only thing anone can do is just pray and hope.
So Jonathan and I broke up. We wont get back together for a long while. He says that he knows we should be together and after our little break/thinking time thingy he has no doubt in his mind that we will get back together. I hope to God that is what happens. I feel we should be together too. But I also just dont want to sit around waiting for him to come back to me either. I want to try to date someone else... maybe. Dating other people is the least of my worries right now though. I love him so much and i miss him but our relationship was just going downhill for the longest time and there was nothing we could do about it so this is good for us. Whether we find out we arent supposed to be together or not. Anyways... so Im just supposed to sit around waiting for him to come back to me? If I did decide to date I want to be over Jonathan. Ill never really be over him... he's my first/second TRUE love. But Ill get over him the best I can. And I dont want the people I date (IF I decide to) to think Im using them to get over him or get back at him or something. Oh well. I just love him so much... I miss him so much. I find myself hating life because hes not in it anymore but i have these wonderful people in my life that make it so much better... y'all know who you are.
I love my friends so much. You all are always there for me when I need you. I cant believe how great you all are. You know who you are. Never forget that.
Well Im done for now. Maybe Ill write some more later. Night
So Jonathan and I broke up. We wont get back together for a long while. He says that he knows we should be together and after our little break/thinking time thingy he has no doubt in his mind that we will get back together. I hope to God that is what happens. I feel we should be together too. But I also just dont want to sit around waiting for him to come back to me either. I want to try to date someone else... maybe. Dating other people is the least of my worries right now though. I love him so much and i miss him but our relationship was just going downhill for the longest time and there was nothing we could do about it so this is good for us. Whether we find out we arent supposed to be together or not. Anyways... so Im just supposed to sit around waiting for him to come back to me? If I did decide to date I want to be over Jonathan. Ill never really be over him... he's my first/second TRUE love. But Ill get over him the best I can. And I dont want the people I date (IF I decide to) to think Im using them to get over him or get back at him or something. Oh well. I just love him so much... I miss him so much. I find myself hating life because hes not in it anymore but i have these wonderful people in my life that make it so much better... y'all know who you are.
I love my friends so much. You all are always there for me when I need you. I cant believe how great you all are. You know who you are. Never forget that.
Well Im done for now. Maybe Ill write some more later. Night