Im not an elephant today
Today was THE worst day of my life. Seriously... like I dont even know what to do with myself right now. Everyone always says that "special person" will come along someday... but I need that special person right now. It's times like these that I need a shoulder to lean on and I dont have one. My BEST friend hates me... I just keep hurting him. It's like the closer we get to eachother in out friendship the more it hurts him. I dont know what to do anymore. I need help from somewhere or someone but I dont know who or where to go to. It just doesnt make sense you know? I can never just have a really good friend that understands me. I had Jonathan... he understood me more than anyone I'll ever meet but we all know how that went. And then there's Mike and thats all ending now. I dont know. I hate this. This guy Matt is a lot like me. He was Jonathan's best friend but then Jonathan screwed him over too and now he hates Jonathan (so much drama... you have no idea). So me and Matt have been talking for a while. I really like talking to him because he understands me. Not like Jonathan used to and Mike does but still... it's someone. And he's really nice and everything so yeah. I dont know. It's nice to talk to him because he has been throught almost everthing I have. Almost the same exact situations too. Anyways I dont know. Today was just horrible all around and I have a feeling tomorrow wont be any better. Me and Matt have plans to hang out tomorrow but since its Sunday I probably wont be able to. My parents are weird like that. well im missing CSI. ttyl
xoxo
xoxo